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audrey wadcock is love's bitch (notaspare) wrote in wished,
@ 2009-11-22 20:51:00

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!1997: 11, !incomplete, alfred cattermole, audrey wadcock

WHO: Audrey & Alfie
WHAT: Alfie needs to talk
WHERE: Hufflepuff common room
WHEN: Sunday night
WARNINGS/RATING/STATUS: ~srs bsns~ contained within/PG?/Ongoing

Audrey wrapped her arms around herself and made her way downstairs to the Common room. Whatever Alfie wanted to discuss, she was certain it wasn't good. She didn't even need to use her knowledge of years as his best friend to figure it out, it had been as plain as if he'd written it out. Stuffing her hands into the pockets of her jeans, she bit back a sigh and stepped down the last step.

There was Alfie, across the way, sitting on the couch and Aud pursed her lips. She couldn't help but think whatever it was Alfie needed to talk about had to do with her and their... sham of a relationship. The thought made her feel guilty because there were so many things, bigger and more important, than her stupid inability to be in a relationship, so why was she so upset about the thought of it?

Shaking her head, she crossed the room and hovered nervously at the arm of the couch before sliding down and settling beside him. "Hey,"

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alfiecat
2009-11-23 02:18 am UTC (link)

"Hey," Alfie said, and he wanted to hug her or kiss her or something to make her look less worried, but he was pretty sure he looked just the same himself. He wasn't looking forward to saying what he knew he had to say, because he couldn't go on dating her if he was ... well, he knew he was.

There were too many people around the common room, though, when he looked around. Instead he stood and gave her a hollow sort of half grin. "Do you want to walk with me to the owlery or something. So we can talk somewhere..." Private. He didn't add that.

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notaspare
2009-11-23 02:37 am UTC (link)

"Sure," Audrey pushed herself out of the couch and wrapped her arms around herself. They were going somewhere private. It wasn't even as though she really wanted to be with Alfie, so much as she desperately wanted to be normal.

"Owlery it is!" She forced a note of cheer into her voice that she most certainly did not feel and started towards the portrait, without waiting to see if he was following.

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alfiecat
2009-11-25 02:49 am UTC (link)

Even that much cheer made Alfie feel even worse about what was going to happen. He didn't know what he'd do if Aud hated him - she'd been his best friend since first year, when he'd tried to make friends with everyone who was in his sister's room...

He shoved his hands into his pockets and walked silently, sullenly through the first few hallways toward the Owlery. He didn't want to be the one who started, really.

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notaspare
2009-11-25 03:08 am UTC (link)

Audrey resisted the urge to slip her arm through his, even though she would've done it as his best friend and had every right to do it as his girlfriend. However, she couldn't bring herself to and instead wrapped her arms tightly around herself.

Eyes down, Aud waited painfully for Alfie to start, to say something, anything, but he didn't and before she could shut herself up she stopped walking and blurted out, her voice cracking halfway through the question. "You hate me, don't you?"

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	alfiecat 2009-11-25 03:13 am UTC (link)
	Alfie gasped a little, literally gasped, and stopped in the middle of the hallway. "What?!" He almost yelled it. "How could you even - Audrey, no! " (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notaspare
2009-11-25 04:15 am UTC (link)

"Because," she hiccoughed, tightening her arms around herself, tears pricking at her eyes. "Because you don't want to kiss me or snuggle with me or have sex with me and I just want to be normal! I just want someone to like me and I want to like them back and - and - " She was crying now, tears leaking from her eyes and she swiped at them, hating this emotional outburst but unable to stop herself. "I'm afraid that won't ever happen!"

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alfiecat
2009-11-25 08:50 pm UTC (link)

"I like you!" Alfie never knew what to do with crying girls, but there was a stone bench in the hallway and he wrapped his arms around her and tugged her toward it, keeping his arms around her while she cried.

"I love you. You're my best friend, you know that! I couldn't ever not like you. I just don't...." Now he got quieter. Who told a crying girl that you didn't like them that way.

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notaspare
2009-11-28 02:03 am UTC (link)

Snuffling up her tears, Aud shook her head and clung close to him. It wasn't even as though she liked Alfie like that. She just hated feeling so alone and confused and... wrong all the time. Being with Alfie had pushed those feelings to the side and she could at least pretend that everything was alright.

She shook her head again and finished for him. "You don't like me like that," her voice was full of self-deprecation and she kept her face against his shirt, a part of her aware she should be focussing on Alfie right now, not herself.

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alfiecat
2009-11-28 02:07 am UTC (link)

Alfie hated the broken way she said that, he just didn't know what to say to help it at all.

"I ... I mean, there's something wrong with me. I know that. I should, you're perfect. If I ... If I liked any girl like that, it would be you."

But he didn't, and he figured he should probably admit that to her, now. Something was wrong enough with him that he didn't think he'd ever like a girl that way.

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	notaspare 2009-11-28 02:36 am UTC (link)
	Audrey pulled back and shook her head at him. "There's nothing wrong with you," she gasped, shocked that he would think it and not seeing the irony that she herself had just been thinking something was wrong with her. "How could you think that?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alfiecat
2009-11-28 02:48 am UTC (link)

Alfie frowned, but he kept his arms around her too - not quite sure she was done crying. "Well, I should like... I mean, gods, Audrey, I should be so bloody happy to be snogging you and dating you and all. Any bloke would be. But I can't stop thinking about...." He stopped, sighing, looking down at his legs. "I just... I don't want to cheat on you or something. And I don't want you to be miserable. And I don't want to miserable. And don't hate me, okay? I just... I mean, I'm a ponce, right? It's wrong. But I don't think I can fix it."

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