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Tweak says, "I'll always be second to him."

ᴇʟᴇɴᴀ ɢɪʟʙᴇʀᴛ. (earned) wrote in welcomenetwork,
@ 2014-03-12 00:08:00

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arthur, cora hale, elena gilbert, jenna sommers

I did something yesterday that I never wanted to do in my life. It was just as terrible as I thought it would be, but... I saved a friend's life by doing it. Does that make it better, or is it still just as terrible? I don't know. I wish I did. I wish I knew how this would end up, if I did the right thing. I hope I'm up to this...

It's taking a lot of concentration not to say the thing I did, wow.

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	littlehale 2014-03-12 08:59 am UTC (link)
	You did the right thing. It's getting harder and harder to keep from saying everything. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	earned 2014-03-12 09:08 am UTC (link)
	I hope so. Do you... Are you mad? About what I did? I know. It's not a problem so long as I stick to people who know things, and I don't have many secrets from my friends, but... It took more effort than it should have to keep this post to just the true things I wanted to say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	littlehale 2014-03-12 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	No. I'm not mad. I'm a little hurt but I'm not mad. For me, it's not so much secrets as things I don't want to burden other people with. I'm not good at expressing my feelings. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	pointsystem 2014-03-12 04:36 pm UTC (link)
	While I do not know what it is you did, if it saved a friend's life... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	earned 2014-03-12 06:46 pm UTC (link)
	It did. I'm certain of that, at least. But I still don't know if it was a good thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pointsystem 2014-03-12 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	Saving a friend's life is not a good thing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	earned 2014-03-12 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	It... comes at a cost. A cost I'm not sure he really understood. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pointsystem 2014-03-12 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	Ah. Well, hopefully it worked out for the best. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Elena thelasttoknow 2014-03-14 03:15 am UTC (link)
	Want me to pretend to cook, and really not and order out and buy a lot of ice cream? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Jenna earned 2014-03-14 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Yes please. I might cry on you for a little while, sorry. I'm just really freaked out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Elena thelasttoknow 2014-03-14 03:21 am UTC (link)
	Whatever you need to do, I'm here, no matter what. It's okay to be freaked out. I think I'd be worried more if you weren't. Sometimes it would be easier to pretend life is simple with blacks and whites, but we both know the world is really more grey. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Jenna earned 2014-03-14 03:25 am UTC (link)
	Shades of grey, yeah, but... do those shades include turning your friend into a vampire to save his life? I don't know if I'm up to this, Jenna. I barely got through the first months of my own change, and I had a lot of vampire role models. I want to teach Stiles how to be a good vampire, but... I don't know if I can. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Elena/Jenna

thelasttoknow
2014-03-14 03:30 am UTC (link)

You wouldn't be here if it weren't for someone crossing lines. You might be just dead otherwise, but you aren't. I know things aren't easy from what I've been told, but you of all people have the ability to really help Stiles and give him the chance to be the kind of person you are, and the kind you look up to, the kind you want to be. We might need blood to survive but we still have our humanity.

It isn't easy. I know it isn't easy. It's possible though.

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