I did something yesterday that I never wanted to do in my life. It was just as terrible as I thought it would be, but... I saved a friend's life by doing it. Does that make it better, or is it still just as terrible? I don't know. I wish I did. I wish I knew how this would end up, if I did the right thing. I hope I'm up to this...
It's taking a lot of concentration not to say the thing I did, wow.