We'll fix it. You couldn't hurt a kitten right now. Don't even try to tell me you've got your strength back, because I know better. Been there, done that, remember?
I know how you feel, because I went throught it myself just months ago, but it wasn't your fault. You were turned against your will and nothing you did as a Strigoi was in your control. It's going to take time to move on from it, but I think you'll find a lot of people won't blame you. Most of us know it wasn't your fault.