Crowley is making his own destiny. As the king of Hell. That is what you are choosing. You can't mean to tell me you see no possible conflict within yourself.
It has been my mission even before it was yours and I am not abandoning it now. I understand all I need to complete it. I value their sovereignty, I respect their realm and my place in this was never your call. I know where my heart it.
Hope, what I hoped was true, what I wanted to believe was true, protected me from nothing because it was misplaced. I wanted to believe Heaven was righteous. It only lead to pain. Desire is no protection.
You still think there is a chance that, in the course of his role, Crowley will not do things you can't abide?