I loved him before he was that. And yes he's a demon, I'm more than aware but my feelings for him can't be news to you. I am not at both sides of the balance. He does not control me, neither do.
Crowley knows the line he cannot cross with me. And he never has.
And believe me I am well aware of the price that might one day be taken for daring to love.
Crowley, Ruby, it all comes back to our brothers ego, in fact, no, it all goes back to the Garden. Temptation, Original Sin. The world was poisoned long before demons took a hand in it.
I can't help my feeling, and frankly. If our father sees it as something vile then I'm sure he'll make it known on his return