winchester, sam. (ex_demonbloo908) wrote in wariscomingcom, @ 2013-12-19 16:55:00 |
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Entry tags: | ruby winchester, sam winchester |
Ruby,
If you're reading this, then it's probably all over by now. I know, I know. A letter. I can see you rolling your eyes now. How could I, of all people, leave you with a stupid piece of paper? I know that it's not the most tasteful thing in the world, but it was the only way I could do this. You were gone and I...I had to. I needed to say goodbye.
I think, deep down, that you and I knew we were always going to end up here. From the moment I pried that cage open and started all of this, we knew that survival was going to come at a cost that neither of us wanted to pay. We should have known better. More importantly, I should have known better. But if this is it? If what I've done here is the way to stop everything? To give you and Emily a fair shot at a safe life? Then I would do it a million times over.
But I don't want it to have been for nothing. In the years that I've known you, there's one thing that I've learned above all else: you're stubborn. You will stop at nothing to get what you want and if you think, even for a second, that there's a way to undo this, just...don't. Please. Don't try. This apocalypse started because me and my family couldn't let well enough be. What's dead? Should stay dead. I accept that. I want you to, too. I want you to be safe. I want you to find happiness. I want you and Emily to live a long and healthy life without the weight I carried into our home dragging you down. I want you to be free, Ruby, and I think we both know that letting go is the only way that's ever going to happen.
I know it's selfish of me to ask. I bailed. I let myself go. I did the one thing that I promised that I would never do and that's always going to be on me. But this is it. If I get a dying wish? I want it to be this. Move on. Get through this.
Live. You and Emily. Do it for me.
I love you. And I'm sorry.
- Sam.