Rose
I'm not even gonna touch on the face changing thing because I think enough people will.
You lost someone you love and were given a chance to be with him again, only to have the Seal screw with you and end it all over again. And you know if you do go home that nothing will be the same because you've seen the future.
I think if you want to lay in bed again, then do it. If you want to drink yourself stupid, you do it. Because you're strong, but sometimes we just need to curl up and shut out the world so that we can cope with all its done to us.