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Tweak says, "I don't mean to be evil..."

Castiel is a better weapon (ofthursdays) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2013-04-20 18:31:00

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castiel, kenzi

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Thank you.

I... am sorry you saw that.

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	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 09:34 am UTC (link)
	I will note it. It's difficult to put into words. I don't... feel anything I am doing is right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 09:43 am UTC (link)
	Yeah? Congratulations. Welcome to the first step of humanity. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 09:45 am UTC (link)
	You feel this too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 09:49 am UTC (link)
	We all do. Especially when shit gets real and it feels like you can't do anything to make it better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 09:51 am UTC (link)
	I don't think I have time to take the slow path. What needs to be done needs to be done soon. Now. I can't afford to be so ill-equipped but... I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 10:08 am UTC (link)
	Any other path is gonna get you killed. You know that, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 10:12 am UTC (link)
	It wouldn't be the first time. Some things... are worth the risk. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 10:28 am UTC (link)
	But only when the risk is needed. You see fire falling from the sky yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 10:29 am UTC (link)
	You want to wait until it is? That does not sound like a good strategy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 10:35 am UTC (link)
	It's better than whipping out a suicidal attempt at heroics before you've even reached halftime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 10:36 am UTC (link)
	What if... someone else is doing that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 10:37 am UTC (link)
	They're either really brave or really stupid. Probably really stupid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 11:59 am UTC (link)
	Yes. That is difficult to combat. But it needs to be combated. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	You could start by not puking on hookers and passing out in shady places. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	That isn't what I wanted to be doing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-20 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	Chyeah, you and everyone else, buddy. Just know that here in the human world, we consider where you were last night as an all time low. Not a good place to be in. So what can I do to make sure the only drunken shenanigans you get into in the future are the result of happy fun times and not a case of some seriously concerning self loathing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-20 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know... It is clear I let them, and myself, down. This doesn't inspire self-love. They don't want to work with me now. I... would likely choose the same in their place. But... what they want me to find... some... inner peace. Direction. I had direction. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-21 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Then you lost it cause of your douchey family. I know. Look, Cas, the answers aren't going to hit you overnight. Sometimes it takes years for people to figure out how to make stuff happen. In the meantime, all you can really do is hang tight and do the best you can. It's what all of us are doing here. You're not alone in all this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-21 01:15 am UTC (link)
	It seems I have... reached the bottom. They can't afford to wait years for me to become effective. I... don't think I can either. You already know how to be human. It's a start. I know they don't have all the answers either but... they know what they are. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ex_the_kenzi392
2013-04-21 06:59 am UTC (link)

Who says you aren't effective? You don't have to be a walking biblical powerhouse to make a difference. You do what you know how to do in the best way you can do it. Anyone who thinks you gotta have powers or be Fae or whatever to edge in a few hits of your own in this fight is stupid.

Which means, yes, I'm calling you stupid. And if you don't stop being stupid? I'ma have to show you how we non-powerful types pull off kicking ass cause yours isn't far off my radar at the moment after the shit you pulled last night. Comprehende?

You're a badass. That's what you are. You're the angel that told his family to go screw themselves cause he wasn't down with watching humanity burn over some petty drama that happened forever ago. You're the guy who gave up everything to do the right thing. That's who you are and you better not forget it.

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	ofthursdays 2013-04-21 07:12 am UTC (link)
	The best way I can... I am not doing that. Not because I don't have my Grace. I... have not adjusted. I understand. I... promise I will not forget. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_the_kenzi392 2013-04-21 08:26 am UTC (link)
	But you're trying to adjust. You're doing the best you can right now in your position, right? Good. Cause that ass kicking thing? It's still in the books for the future if you do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ofthursdays 2013-04-21 08:34 am UTC (link)
	Yes. I am trying. Perhaps too hard but yes. I... appreciate that. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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