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Katherine Pierce is coming for your blood. (psychobitchvamp) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2012-10-18 22:00:00

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jacen solo, katherine pierce, merlin

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I guess I'm still not doing things right...

How do I ~~fix this~~ apologize for everything I've done when no one will believe it? How do I show people this isn't another in a long line of games I've played?

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ex_magi436
2012-10-18 03:47 pm UTC (link)

All you can do is try. Apologize, and try to do better, and live it.

I believe that honest effort and time can change things. But it does take that time, and it takes showing you are willing to try to help people, to make an effort to show you mean what you say as more than just words.

Some people wont believe, ever. Some will, in time. The proof, as they say, is in the pudding. The question is, can you endure the time and effort it will take to undo what you have done?

The true focus must be on still facing your past and making new choices. Living a life differently from the past will show people, those open to it anyway, that you are genuine. In a way, it is unfair to you, and yet it is restitution, also. To make things better, you must live a new life, working to be the person you want to be.

I know you can do it.

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psychobitchvamp
2012-10-18 04:23 pm UTC (link)

I'm starting to think that no one is going to believe it, no matter what I do, no matter how much time has passed.

How do I show that when no one believes it? It's sort of a catch 22, isn't it? People aren't going to want my help when they don't feel they can trust me, right? So, how can I help anyone if I can't garner at least some level of trust?

I'm trying, I am and you know I am... I just hope you're not wrong for having this trust and faith in me...

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ex_magi436
2012-10-18 05:47 pm UTC (link)

I know I am not wrong, and... well, as for showing, live.

Live as you want to be seen, as you want to be. It will be hard, and it will never convince everyone, because some people do not believe in changes or in redemption. But most people will grow used to the new you in time, if you show by deeds and actions.

Don't try to press your help on those who do not want it, but seek ways to do good, or to do right in the way you live. For many, seeing you become a person who tries, and who fights for a better life, and to be better, I think, is something that will show them who you are.

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	psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 06:00 pm UTC (link)
	I think, maybe, as well as I comprehend the concept, maybe I didn't truly understand how hard this really would be... Maybe I needed what happened yesterday to show me the reality of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_magi436 2012-10-18 06:23 pm UTC (link)
	What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	~~I got yelled at~~ Oh, just your typical disagreements over whether I'm worthy of a second chance. Some things kind of hit me differently this time, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_magi436 2012-10-18 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	And therein is part of the problem. You have to try to be a netter person, with tge knowledge that only a few wlll ever forgive you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 07:20 pm UTC (link)
	It's a cycle, and I guess it will be for awhile. If I'm happy, they'll want to tear me down, if I'm in pain, they'll say I deserve it... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_magi436 2012-10-18 07:43 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. Probably. But the longer you are here, the longer you try, the better it will get. And even now, you have people who are willing to give you a chance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	I hope so. I'm beyond grateful for those of you that are willing. I really don't think I could do this at all without you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_magi436 2012-10-18 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	I am glad to help, my friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Merlin psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	Also, I wanted to thank you for the trip to Paris. It was amazing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Katherine \| Merlin ex_magi436 2012-10-18 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	You are most welcome. it was a delight to share it with you. it had been entirely too long since I went there. besides doing nice things for each other is part of what friends are for, is it not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Merlin psychobitchvamp 2012-10-18 10:55 pm UTC (link)
	I haven't been there in a long time myself. One really great thing about eternity? You have all the time in the world to travel and explore. Yeah, I guess you're right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Merlin ex_magi436 2012-10-19 06:20 am UTC (link)
	I did enjoy it immensely. And would enjoy further travels with you, an you wish it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Merlin psychobitchvamp 2012-10-19 06:40 am UTC (link)
	I would love that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Katherine \| Merlin ex_magi436 2012-10-19 06:44 am UTC (link)
	Good! Next time it will be your turn to choose where to go. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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