Inara
Perhaps I don't. But given how you've spoken of it, there are different components. No one singular thing. That's what I meant. Maybe being a Companion isn't something you do, but if you wish to do something and not just wait for the next big crisis, perhaps you isolate aspects of it, those parts that are still inherently you and see if there isn't something where you can at least utilize that, even if it's not the same. It's merely a suggestion.