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Tweak says, "Get down, make love!"

winchester, sam. (ex_demonbloo908) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2011-10-02 16:08:00

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dean winchester, jessica moore, sam winchester

Filtered against evil.
I don't know how many of you know this, but Jessica Moore is dead. ~~Again.~~ We haven't been able to figure out who was responsible for her death, but she's gone and I think she deserves a real funeral.

Never mind.

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	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 12:58 am UTC (link)
	Not from you. And definitely not after what I put him through. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:00 am UTC (link)
	Why not from me. And YOU didn't put him through anything? Sam why the hell can't people see, why can't he see. It wasn't you, and Booth had no control over being your bitch. Not fun to watch, by the way. Funny how he takes responsibility for what isn't his fault and tries to get free of the one bit that IS (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:03 am UTC (link)
	What exactly did he do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:08 am UTC (link)
	...Doesn't matter You're right I'm being irrational. Crazy demon wife. Don't bring her to parties. I'll back off him (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:11 am UTC (link)
	Tell me what he did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:13 am UTC (link)
	Well mindscrewey him did say I was second best to him but y'know, thats less important. You know what he did, you know what you're trying to save him from and I just...I don't like him. I try to I just...I don't, Sam. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:18 am UTC (link)
	You're not second best to anyone. Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sam

frostandsnow
2011-10-04 01:21 am UTC (link)

It still got to me. It shouldn't.

Lots of reasons, reasons that have built up over the time he's been here, he screws up, drowns his issues in booze or when he gives that up, painkillers, he guilt trips about what isn't his fault and ignores the fact he sold his damn soul so that Bela Freaking Talbot could stay out of the pit. He makes you upset, he makes you worried, and you want to fix him. I know he's your friend but you could have better ones.

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Ruby

ex_demonbloo908
2011-10-04 01:26 am UTC (link)

Damn right it shouldn't. You're the strongest woman I know. Don't let something that Booth said while he was crazy bring you down.

I'm allowed to worry about my friends. And in case you've forgotten? I'm not exactly the textbook definition of what most people would see as a great friend either. Demon blood addict that started the apocalypse and is supposed to be Satan's vessel? I should be grateful that he even wants to be my friend.

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Sam

frostandsnow
2011-10-04 01:32 am UTC (link)

I act it. I know you love me. That's never under question, not even close. You're my husband. But sometimes, I still look at Jess, look at Booth and see how much easier you could have it. If I hadn't been here or if we hadn't been together when she showed up, its her you'd be married to now ~~And already probably have a baby on the~~

You're the best friend anyone could have. And if they don't see that, then they're morons and don't deserve you. The blood, it doesn't matter. You're stronger than it.

...I just...he annoys me a lot of the time. But he's your friend. So...yeah, I'll get over it.

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Ruby

ex_demonbloo908
2011-10-04 01:40 am UTC (link)

You can't look at Booth and think that he's the prime example of how I could potentially have a better life when you were literally just telling me how you think I could have better friends than him.

I don't want anything or anyone else. It doesn't matter. What you think is best for me isn't actually what's best for me all the time, you know. Stop doing this. I mean it, Ruby. I hate it when you do this, because it's like some kind of emotional self-mutilation that you put on yourself and it's not even a little bit warranted. You're my wife. You're the one I'm with and I wouldn't have it any other way. Understand?

I think it's probably written somewhere in the marriage handbook that you're supposed to be annoyed by my friends.

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	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 02:25 am UTC (link)
	You could have. But he's human and he's normal, if screwed up and going to hell. I try not to. You know that right. I try to ignore those niggling feelings, but they get on top of me. I understand, I do. I just...its complicated Sam. It goes without saying you're annoyed by mine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 05:44 am UTC (link)
	You and I are probably going to hell too. What's your point? How is it complicated? I love you. You love me. That should be enough. Why isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Sam

frostandsnow
2011-10-04 11:58 am UTC (link)

Yeah maybe we are. But we can live the time we have here together. I don't know Sam, I don't have to like him. He's your friend, that should be what's important to you.

I keep feeling like you deserve this perfect world, like the one you would have had with Jess if we'd never interfered. And I can try and try all my life to give you that but I can't. I'm not capable of it. And so I feel like I'm inferior to her, I guess...

I know how stupid that is.

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	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:18 pm UTC (link)
	Your idea of a perfect world isn't my idea of a perfect world. I don't want you to run around the house in an apron trying to be your idea of the kind of wife that I want. I want you. I want you to be you. That's who I married, not who you're trying to be because you think it'll make me happy. It won't. We should leave for a while. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:24 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not trying to change. I know you married me. I just wish we could have some of those things that are normal. You deserve that. Leave to go where? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:28 pm UTC (link)
	We have our moments. Like when we curl up in bed together. I love being in bed with you, no matter what we're doing. We get to block out the rest of the world and just relax. It's nice. Anywhere but here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:30 pm UTC (link)
	Because it's just us, and its calm and the rest of the world can just ...go away for a while. I get that too. ...New York. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:32 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad it's not just me. New York...? Why New York? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:35 pm UTC (link)
	Its not just you. I love just being with you. Just sometimes I get caught up in all that other stuff. This is all new to me Sam, all of this. Sometimes I'll mess up. I've never been. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 01:37 pm UTC (link)
	It's new to me too, you know. We'll both probably mess up a lot. In fact, I'm pretty sure it's my turn to screw something up. Just take it easy on me when I piss you off, all right? You're like a million years old. How have you never been? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 01:42 pm UTC (link)
	You're at least human. Those emotions are normal for you. Never ask a girl her age Winchester! But...I guess I just never have Never needed to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 02:32 pm UTC (link)
	I dont know. I think you handle those emotions better than some of us do. Then we'll go to New York. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Sam frostandsnow 2011-10-04 02:49 pm UTC (link)
	Seriously? Like what I love you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ruby ex_demonbloo908 2011-10-04 03:00 pm UTC (link)
	You aren't locking me away and going psycho lover on me like some crazy people you hear about in the news, are you? I love you too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)