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Roger Davis doesn't pay rent (glorifiedsong) wrote in wariscomingcom,
@ 2011-06-07 10:43:00

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epiphany greaves

filtered against the bad
I don't want to die, betrayed by my own body.

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	mydocumentary 2011-06-07 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	You weren't betrayed by your body as much as you were those damned drugs. (Reply to this) (Thread)

glorifiedsong
2011-06-07 06:00 pm UTC (link)

No. It's my body. Because not everyone who does that shit gets fucked over. But I guess I deserve it, right? I was an idiot. Let April convince me it was okay. Look where it got her. Got me.

But Angel didn't deserve it. Collins doesn't deserve it. Yet Angel's gone and Collins will be and I'll be next. Because my body gave me the big fuck you. I don't want this, Mark and nothing I do will make it better. I'm going to die and you'll be alone and that's not okay.

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	mydocumentary 2011-06-07 06:07 pm UTC (link)
	No one deserves it, you know better. Come on, don't let those months with Life Support go to waste now. I've been doing a lot of reading and the advancements these days are amazing. Maybe thats wh you're here. To have more time, to live. And if you go and give up now, where would the point be? Fight, dammit, or you really will have left me alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	Saying I don't want to die and giving up are two different things, Mark. I'm tired of fighting but that doesn't mean I'm going to stop. Do you really think that lowly of me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mydocumentary 2011-06-07 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	If I did would I be saying that you don't deserve this? Or would I be begging you to keep going and to drop the defeatist attitude? Not likely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 10:50 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. I'm trying. I really am. But that doesn't make it any less true that I don't want this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mydocumentary 2011-06-08 01:03 am UTC (link)
	I'd be a bit more worried about you if you did. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	dethronedking 2011-06-07 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	Huh? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 06:01 pm UTC (link)
	I was a fucking idiot and let a girl get me into drugs. Now I have HIV and will die. Doesn't matter that I take my AZT. Doesn't matter that I'm careful around others. I'm still going to die because of this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dethronedking 2011-06-07 09:46 pm UTC (link)
	So live the life you have. Live the time you have. You know you were stupid. You know you made mistakes. That's important (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 10:52 pm UTC (link)
	I am. But there are times like now where I'm scared shitless about what will happen. But I am doing that living thing. No day but today. I'm better than I was back home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dethronedking 2011-06-08 12:00 am UTC (link)
	I'm pretty sure scared is good sometimes. That's it. We're going for beer. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-08 12:36 am UTC (link)
	Beer sounds great. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	dethronedking 2011-06-08 12:38 am UTC (link)
	Good. Lobby in ten minutes (Reply to this) (Parent)

	mysisterisaship 2011-06-07 06:06 pm UTC (link)
	With the treatments here you could very well live another 20-50 years if you stay on this side of the seal. Being from the past could even work in your favor, many strains of the virus have developed a resistance to current treatments, yours very likely won't be one of them since you're from another time. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	mydocumentary 2011-06-07 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	See?? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	youngalchemist 2011-06-07 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	I can probably work up something that'll keep it under control for you if you decide you want to give potions a try. I'd say I could cure it and shit, but that'd be a stretch. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	I'll think about it, thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	youngalchemist 2011-06-08 01:27 am UTC (link)
	Not a problem. I'm an alchemist, potions are my thing. Name's Epiphany, by the way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-08 01:30 am UTC (link)
	I'm Roger. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	maryrockstar 2011-06-07 10:44 pm UTC (link)
	Is this it? The thing that has you blocked creatively? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-07 10:55 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. Haven't been able to write since my girlfriend killed herself after leaving a note for me on the mirror that we have AIDS. Two years now. I try but all I have is something that sounds like Musetta's Waltz. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryrockstar 2011-06-08 01:17 am UTC (link)
	Some of the best songs come from pain. Maybe inspiration will strike you while you're here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	glorifiedsong 2011-06-08 01:30 am UTC (link)
	Maybe. (Reply to this) (Parent)