Anakin Solo is judging you with his eyes (jedislight) wrote in wariscoming, @ 2011-03-16 17:48:00 |
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Entry tags: | anakin solo, luke skywalker |
Who; Luke and Anakin
What: Training. And a possible breakdown
When: Tonight!
Where: rooftop of the complex.
Warnings: Angst.
Since the fight with Jacen ended, Anakin left the computer alone and tried to meditate. Refocus his energy elsewhere. He'd originally made plans to go be with Tahiri, but he wasn't sure he could even look at her without feeling sick so he called it off. He wasn't in the mood for company, but training would probably help take his mind off things. So he would at least try.
Feeling like bricks were weighing him down, Anakin got up and left his room. He headed for the complex roof that had become his training place with Luke. It was also supposed to be a calming place. He needed calm. The only thing he could think about was the Vong speak which lead to thoughts of death. He remembered it all. He remembered all three wounds that lead to death at the hands of said Vong. It'd hurt. A lot. It hurt even worse to be brought back to life and torn away from the peace he'd finally gained, but he hadn't even really stopped to think about how it felt aside from acknowledging it from a detached point of view for the purpose of explanations. Jacen and Tahiri's vong speek had been like a slap in the face.
A snap back to reality. He always said he was fine when questions of his death came up, physically sure..he was. But mentally he hadn't accepted it at all. He'd died and knew of the grim future his family faced. It was heart breaking. He literally felt like he'd been stabbed again even as he reached that rooftop and tried to remember why he'd actually bothered showing. He was supposed to be focusing and getting ready for training, he hadn't even brought the laser puzzle he'd built., he couldn't focus, he couldn't even think straight.
He couldn't feel the calming effect the garden usually brought. the numbness was melting away. All he was left with was raw pain. He felt betrayed and more alone then he'd ever felt before.