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George Weasley (groovygeorge) wrote in veritaserum_rp,
@ 2008-08-18 01:06:00

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george weasley, parvati malfoy

Who: George Weasley and Parvati Malfoy
Where: George's place, Diagon Alley
When: Mid-afternoon
What: Continuation of this thread. George finally confesses his love for Parvati! Too much drama for just one thread!

George could hear her voice ringing in his hears.

"You know when I was little I had a gigantic crush on you George, and you didn't give me the time of day. You had all those random dates, and that was AWFUL. I couldn't understand that but I wasn't mean to you! And I was in love with you! There is no way whatever you're feeling is equal to that, is there? So yeah, you don't get it, but STOP taking it OUT on ME!"

He stood there, staring at Parvati, watching the tears stream down her face as she ranted and raved at him, and something inside of him snapped.

"I'm sorry I didn't pay attention to you when we were in school. I honestly didn't realize you had such a big crush on me until much later, and by then toy were dating Draco..." He murmured, his voice a lot quieter than the yelling he'd been doing just moments before.

"But you think I don't get how you felt?" He asked, an almost hurt expression taking over his face. "Do you honestly think, Parvati, that I'd be so upset about all of this if I just cared about you as a friend?"

He knew he was going to regret what he was going to say next, but he just couldn't bring himself to care. It had to be better than all of this fighting and hiding his feeling, right? "I love you, Parvati," he said simply, voice nearly cracking as he forced the words out. "Stupid, head-over-heels, want to buy a farm in the country and have a million babies love. And it kills me inside every time I think about you and Draco. Or how maybe, if I hadn't been so stupid in school, I'd be the one you'd be married to and sharing your life with right now. So I'm sorry, I'm not sure if I'm ever going to be able to accept the fact that the woman I love is married to someone I hate, and it's my own stupid fault for not realizing what I had until I lost it."

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_prettyparvati
2008-08-18 09:45 pm UTC (link)

"No, I don't think you get-" She had immediately begun to reply back, but almost as quickly the words turned to dust on her tongue.

Everything seemed to be going out of focus all at once. It was as if the two of them were on a cart racing through the deepest tunnels of Gringotts - everything else black and whipping past them, but yet they were oddly still.

"You-" She could barely speak, barely form a thought, "You...love me?"

At times, Parvati had perhaps come to this conclusion, but she had been immediately shamed, thinking that she was being too arrogant. Afterall, she had pined over George for so long, the very idea of him thinking of her as anything more than the little girl that tagged about him had seemed ridiculous.

Once, a long time ago, this declaration would have elated her. Unfortunately, Parvati was happy. She was stupid, head-over-heels, bought a manor in the city and plan to have a million babies, in love with someone. But it wasn't George.

Her breath was coming in raspy breaths, "I...I...I need to sit down." Stumbling backward onto a sofa, right now the only thing she could say was: "But...w-when?"

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groovygeorge
2008-08-18 11:15 pm UTC (link)

"I don't know," George sighed softly, shoulders slumping. He seemed to deflate, his outburst leaving him exhausted.

"I guess maybe after I left school. I don't know. I stopped seeing you as that little girl who followed me around and more as a bright, funny, beautiful girl..." George frowned. Sap wasn't usually his thing, but he just couldn't seem to stop the words from coming out of his mouth.

"I... I'm sorry, Parvati, I know I shouldn't be telling you this because it's probably only going to make things worse. I'm just tired of trying to hide it."

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_prettyparvati
2008-08-18 11:28 pm UTC (link)

"Why didn't you tell me when Draco and I were split up?" She asked, almost incapable of keeping a clear mind. She remembered being lonely then that George had been seeing someone, but that had ended...and then...then what had happened? Oh...she had met Jacob, her now ex-boyfriend.

"George-" The way she said his name sounded like a tortured cry. Indeed, Parvati's insides were twisting and churning in the absolutely misery that this had brought about. She hated, absolutely hated that she was the cause of George feeling bad. If it had been another time, another place...

"It is going to make things worse! How can I - How can I - How has saying it, helped, George? I can't change anything. We can't change anything. I love Draco and that won't ever change, and now, YOU'VE SAID THIS and how can I justify not telling Draco? I can't! I have to tell him! And do you know how he'll react?!" Tears were falling from her eyes like little diamonds. "I'll never be able to see you! And I love you too, George! Just....just not the way you might want. Not anymore."

She was sobbing now, "You've made everything so much worse, George, why did you do it? Why?"

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groovygeorge
2008-08-18 11:46 pm UTC (link)

"... There was never a good time to say it," George replied lamely, staring at the ground. He'd been in a relationship when she'd broken up with Draco, and then when his had ended she'd been with someone else... And he'd figured it just wasn't meant to be, and was able to ignore it for the most part. Until she'd announced she was marrying Draco, anyway.

"I don't know, I just... Wait, you're telling Draco?" His voice raised as his head shot up to look at her in surprise. "Parvati! Don't tell him! Why does he have to know?"

"I'm sorry I've made things so much harder on you, princess," he snapped, his anger resurfacing. "I was tred of being called the bad guy just because I care about you."

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_prettyparvati
2008-08-18 11:59 pm UTC (link)

"When you left on your brooms that day in fifth year, I used to imagine that day over and over again, but instead of just leaving you would've swooped down and picked me up as well." Parvati admitted quietly, feeling dizzy. Her limbs felt as if they weighed 1000lbs each.

She flinched as his voice raised, "How can I not, George? He's my Husband! I can't ... I can't LIE to him! Something like that could irreverisbly damage my entire marriage!" Parvati was dreading the conversation. Although Draco's temper had tempered a lot over the last few years, there were certain things that would make him furious, and this would be one of them. She was already trying to figure out how she could best diffuse his anger, or at least make sure he didn't lash out at George. "And then everytime I see you, it'll be dishonest! A betrayal to my vows! I won't tell him what you said, George, please don't think I would - I just can't...can't pretend as if you're just my friend, then."

As he began to snap at her, she did not grow angrier like she had before. Instead, Parvati seemed to almost shrink, becoming smaller and smaller. "I don't care how hard it is on me, George. I'm scared of not being around you. Don't you get it? Draco will be so...he won't let - .... And I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I make you so upset and that I made you feel like a bad guy. I'm really not worth it, I'm serious."

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groovygeorge
2008-08-19 12:22 am UTC (link)

George was trying to restrain his anger but was finding it harder and harder to do so. "And you wonder why I have such a problem with him? You think he won't let you see me if he finds out? Doesn't he trust you?"

"You don't have to tell him! It's not like you're cheating on him with me!" As happy as that might make him, he was positive it would never happen. It just wasn't like Parvati. Apparently Draco wasn't aware of that."

"Don't... don't talk like that," George frowned. "You're wonderful, Parv, and you know that."

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_prettyparvati
2008-08-19 01:13 pm UTC (link)

Parvati hated that George was yelling, but she felt the urge to defend her husband. "I'm pretty sure he won't let me see you! He does trust me, George, but he won't trust you! Face it, if the roles were reversed, you would never EVER let me even speak to Draco even if he didn't like me! I'm his wife, it would be stupid of him not to be protective!"

She was crying, her hands wrung together as she stared down at her lap, "I do have to tell him! I know I'm not, but I will feel as guilty as if I was! A marriage is built on trust, George. If he hid something like this from me, I wouldn't be able to forgive him. I'm sorry!" It was true, Parvati was remarkably moral when it came to relationships. Hence the reason she waited until marriage, and also why she would never cheat.

"No." She sighed, "I'm not. I've made you feel bad, and it's because of me you're in this horrible position. And that's just bad of me. I'm sorry-" She looked up at him, "You know that if things were different ...."

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groovygeorge
2008-08-19 08:36 pm UTC (link)

"I wouldn't be happy about it, Parvati, but I wouldn't forbid it. I trust you," George frowned at the comparison between himself and Draco. He would never be as bad as that git.

"I..." He sighed. He knew he wouldn't be able to change her mind. That didn't mean e had to like it... Merlin, he didn't even want to think about how Draco would react to this.

"It's fine, Parvati. It's not... it's not your fault." He looked back at the ground, still frowning. "Maybe you should go, though."

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_prettyparvati
2008-08-23 09:57 pm UTC (link)

She gave a sad watery laugh, "You're a Gryffindor. Gryffindor men are always lovely like that." But she still agreed with what she had said. George's anger and sharp derisiveness toward Draco when he but had a crush on Parvati, would certainly mean if the roles were reversed he would do everything in his power to keep Draco far, far away from Parvati.

Parvati's bottom lip was trembling. Her heart was beating a million times a moment (at least when it wasn't lodged up in her throat). "I promise I won't let him get angry at you or be an arse. I won't tell him anything in detail, George, I swear."

"You...you want me to go?" She was panicking. If she knew her husband (And she did, better than anyone else), this might be the last time she could hang out with George. "Oh please, no. Georgie, I'm sorry. Can we just spend the afternoon together? Like...we can just pretend everything's normal and have fun..."

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	groovygeorge 2008-08-25 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	"You really think you can stop him from flipping out? Even I know better than that," George snorted. "Once he knows, he's going to be pissed and you know it." "We can't just pretend this never happened, Parvati," George frowned. "Are you serious? there's no way. I think we should just... take a break," he sighed, looking away. "I'm sorry I ruined everything." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

_prettyparvati
2008-08-25 09:19 pm UTC (link)

"Yes, he'll be livid - but I'll make sure he won't do anything about it." She promised earnestly, her heart slowly sinking.

Parvati's lower lip was jutted out, not in a praticed pout but in a real one. She wished they hadn't tried to repair their friendship. In some ways, being angry at George had been better because there had always been the hope of better...now there was just a wasteland.

"Oh...oh okay. But-" She wanted to argue that no, a break would be horrible, that didn't he realise this might be the last time for awhile they could spend time together, that...

The look on George's face however, put a stop to her arguments. "Okay. I'll...I'll go." She moved forward, hugging him so tightly, "I love you. I'm sorry. It's not your fault, Georgie. We were both stupid at different times."

And then with an air of much too much finality, Parvati walked over to the door, picking up her purse. "Bye, George." Wiping tears from her eyes, she was gone.

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groovygeorge
2008-08-25 09:36 pm UTC (link)

George hesitated for a moment, then wrapped his arms around her and returned her embrace. He didn't know when, if ever, he'd get to do it again. "I love you too," he murmured, very reluctantly letting her go.

"Goodbye, Parvati," he replied, watching her go. He stood there for a few moments, alone, before heading into the kitchen. He needed to figure out where Fred had hidden his scotch.

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