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Tweak says, "Allons-y!"

Jay (_snoogans_) wrote in vas_captio_rpg,
@ 2009-06-19 19:55:00

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!dropped, day 11, jay, location: gym, shannon rutherford

Day 11
Who: Jay and Shannon
What: Figuring out how to go on, I suppose
Where: Behind the gym
When: about 6pm

Jay didn't remember most of the things connecting some events to others. He couldn't remember how he'd found out about Silent Bob, he couldn't remember how he'd gotten to the gym, but he remembered that Logan dude telling him to go there as fast as he could. He'd breezed through the attempt at healing his arms, and now he'd taken enough pain killers to kill a small animal; which meant he was yet again high, which also meant his memory wasn't exactly perfect at this point either.

Most of all, he felt empty. Blank, actually, a blank slate with nothing on it. Confused, too, and lonely though he didn't want to acknowledge that. As he walked outside and around the building, thinking about how for the first time in ever he could use an actual cigarette and not a blunt, he hadn't expected to find Shannon there, looking pretty fucking sad herself. Immediately, Jay sat next to her, mumbling a "Thank God" nobody was supposed to hear. Beyond that, he didn't speak. He couldn't bring himself to.

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ballerinadreams
2009-06-21 03:52 pm UTC (link)

Nodding slightly, Shannon went on stroking Jay's hair absently. He and Bob had had the sort of relationship Shannon and Boone had had before everything got weird and complicated...and bad. She felt her heart break for him that much more for his loss.

Shannon winced when he looked back at her frowning and asked whether it'd get worse. She hated to do it, but she nodded. "It does," she admitted. "Because, at first you're more in shock than anything else. You feel the loss, but mostly you feel numb," she explained, hoping that she wasn't just assuming her experience was the same as others. "When it hits you, it's like a tidal wave. But it does get better after that. Not a lot and not right away, but I promise you it gets a little easier."

When Jay thanked her, Shannon shook her head. "Don't thank me," she said softly. Then she let out a soft sigh and gave him a sad smile. "That's what friends are for, Jay. I'm paying it back for the the other day in the gas station when I felt like hell and you made me feel better." She paused, then. "And as long as I have a say about it, I'll always be here if you need me, Jay. It's bad enough to feel alone but in this place to boot... So, I mean, I know you feel and I can be a pretty good ear when you need it. All you gotta do is ask."

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_snoogans_
2009-06-22 10:10 am UTC (link)

He wouldn't admit it out loud, but it felt pretty nice to have Shannon stroking his hair. It was comforting, even if there was nothing she could do to really make him feel a whole lot better. But it helped.

Jay looked down, closing his eyes for a moment when she admitted it would, in fact, get worse. Now he knew what to expect; nothing good. Hell, at this point he thought nothing good would ever come his way again after Silent Bob. The best friend he could ever have.

With a small smile, Jay looked thankful when he looked back at Shannon. At least he wasn't alone, though he could use Justice right about now, but that wasn't going to happen, and Shannon was looking like a very good friend at the moment. He couldn't ask for more. "Thanks, Shannon, seriously. But I know this probably fucks you up because you'll keep remembering your brother...I don't want that to happen..."

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