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Tweak says, "He's going with me."

Jenny Schecter (dont_f_withme) wrote in vas_captio_rpg,
@ 2009-05-12 15:48:00

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!complete, day 07, jenny schecter, location: theatre, sid jenkins

Day 7: Early Afternoon
Who: Jenny & Sid
What: Jenny wants a shower
When: Early Afternoon
Where: The Theater (to start)
Rating: R (when do we ever not have language?)
Status: Complete

Jenny stood in the doorway to the green room, leaning against the doorframe with her cheek against the jamb. She played idly with her hair, twirling one long dark tendril around her finger over and over again. Her expression was a bit dreamy but she was really thinking, struggling to decide. She'd been here a few days now and it was time for a shower or cleanliness of some sort. She'd heard that there had been a few things in the gas station but considering the snow was nearing the second story windows, she wasn't going out there by herself to fetch anything. That left asking someone to go with her and she wasn't sure about the other girls. She did not want to come across as being too helpless when she clearly was not. Still, Shannon's words flashed in her mind that this place was dangerous - and was it! - and she needed someone to protect her.

Watching the kid in the green room, her eyes followed the movement of his arms with each annoying slap of the ball he'd found against the wall or floor or the palm of his hand. Sid. She was actually contemplating asking this kid who was probably 10 years younger than her, even if he did hold the promise of some muscle beneath the layers, to help her go and get shower supplies. And then perhaps even accompany her to the shower so she wouldn't have to go alone. Why the fuck were there no other men in this theater when she needed them? Where had Logan gone after the failed rescue attempt when she'd ended up naked on stage with Leo? Where the fuck was Leo, for that matter?

Sid. She was stuck with Sid. And he was nice enough but she wasn't quite sure yet. Wasn't sure if it was even necessary for a shower now that she thought about it. She began to turn away and her dress caught on the bristled edge of the splintered doorframe. The small tear caused her to cuss. "Fucking fuck!" she hollered and glanced up quickly in a vain attempt to be sure he hadn't heard her. Of course he had, she'd been loud enough to wake the dead. The slapping of the ball had stopped and Jenny grimaced, trying to turn it into a sweet smile. "Sorry, um, my dress. I - would you come with me to the gas station?" she blurted out before she could stop herself.

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dont_f_withme
2009-06-02 09:43 am UTC (link)

Jenny, not so much by nature but by conditioning and hardening herself after so much horror and unhappiness in her past, was more of a taker than a giver. It hadn't crossed her mind to ask him if he loved Cassie or anything else beyond what she'd asked just to keep herself from crying. She really didn't want to hear about how his girlfriend. She wanted her own here and now.

She was glad he didn't decide to expound because she couldn't have stood it right now. Everything else weighing her down was crushing her spirit. It was all she could do to hang onto him and not spiral down into her fantasy world again as, much to her own embarrassment, she had done a few minutes ago.

She also wasn't determined to do anything but survive even if just barely and not necessarily all the time either. Here or outside in the real world. It was a tooth and nail struggle for her some days. Especially when things conspired to break her down. Like Marina destroying her life just for the fun of it because Marina was bored while her girlfriend was away in Italy. Or finding out Carmen had only been with her to be closer to Shane. It had taken a lot for her to hold her head up those days and no one had taken care of her. She'd had to take care of herself when all she really wanted was for someone to hold together the pieces.

Sid was going to have to do right now. But he was at least willing and Jenny could really appreciate that. In fact, when he looked down at her and said they'd see their girlfriends again, she wiped her eyes then caught his face with one palm and kissed his cheek. "You are very sweet, Sid. Thank you. I don't think I deserve to see Nikki again. Maybe this is purgatory after all." She looked away, pressing her cheek against his stomach again.

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