Roy Harper is No One's Sidekick (imnosidekick) wrote in valarnet, @ 2012-12-03 12:32:00 |
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Current mood: | happy |
Entry tags: | roy harper (red arrow) ii, zevran arainai |
So it was really okay there in the end. With two of us. Real Roy went after Lex Luthor. He blew up...something or other, I wasn't there but saw the explosion from pretty far off. He made fun of my name, and he was kind of right. It IS pretty lame. I mean...Red Arrow? About as bad as Green Arrow, sorry Ollie, but how the hell did we come up with our names?
...Actually, come to think about it, Speedy? Why the hell were OLLIE'S sidekicks named Speedy instead of the Flash's? It really DOES make no sense. Uh sorry, digression.
So anyway. Back to the dream story. Real Roy confronted Luthor about the cloning and kidnap thing and apparently he took out Luthor's really hot android bodyguard, and got given this incredible,damaging, cybernetic arm thing. It's not the kind of thing I would have gone for myself, but I can respect his choices, and all of that.
And then Real Roy decided to become part of the team, once he got his new arm put on. Part of, meaning nobody tried to get rid of me, or kill me, and I didn't have to leave and kill myself like I spent most of the summer after I learned what I was thinking. He didn't mind that I existed.
OLLIE didn't mind that I existed. I'm still blown away by that because hell, I kind of minded I existed, still sort of do. But Ollie didn't secretly hate me or want me gone. He was going to work with both of us and I was going to be Red Arrow, since that was kind of mine, and Real Roy, Speedy Roy, decided to call himself Arsenal, and I guess move back in with Ollie, but there was this implied thing that me...that they WANTED me around still.
Looking into that kid's face, Real Roy's face, seeing how he wasn't actually pissed off, but confused and hurt, for a really damn good reason...It reminds me of the kids at the ranch. It reminds me so much of ME, and it makes me want to help him, if he exists here. I don't want to find him because I think he should replace me anymore. I want to find out if he's here because...kid probably could use somebody right now, and who else is going to get it, get him?
I don't know if he's real, and I don't want to make him my focus anymore, but could the officials out here help me maybe? I can give you DNA samples and stuff and Ollie has pictures from when I was the age Real Roy would be be... It's something to think about anyway. Think about, but not make my sole focus, and not make my life about it.
I have way too many other things to do or think about, and I'm allowed to have them. I'm allowed to have a life, and for it to be a good one, maybe even a great one. Okay, so Ollie is totally paying the landlady off to keep an eye on me and make sure I don't leave my apartment without somebody else in tow, because "we can't trust you not to do something dangerous or stupid", even to the point of calling him to clear it yesterday when I was heading out to the store, but you know. I can live with that. I can live with a whole lot of stuff.
My life? I've got a godfather who actually DOES give a shit, amazing friends who've stuck around with me even when I really, really didn't deserve it, and the most amazing boyfriend EVER. Gonna be the best holiday season I've had in a really long time.