InsaneJournal

Roy Harper is No One's Sidekick (imnosidekick) wrote in valarnet, @ 2012-10-25 01:32:00

Current mood:	determined
Current music:	Josh Groban-Lullaby

Just woke up.
...I have a baby. A daughter.

I'm a father. Of the most adorable baby ever.

...In the dreams, I mean. Not here, obviously, or I guess, not here yet? Maybe? I'm honestly not sure but...

I can have kids there, even though I'm just a thing. I have something Real Roy never had. I've helped create the most amazing person IN my dreams so far, and my wife there was keeping her away from me, and had left me herself because this sick obsession with finding Real Roy was destroying me, and it would have destroyed THEM if I had let it. I had had my head so far up my ass that I didn't even know I had a kid, wasn't there when she was born, and missed out on the part where she got my hair and had a bunch of it grow in and everything.

How old ARE babies when they can hold their heads up and have hair? Because I missed all of that being sunk in my insane and crazy fool idealistic crusade. I can't...

That isn't gonna happen here. If there's a Lian in my future, I'm going to do it right. I want to get better.

I AM going to get better.

...I hope when I go back to sleep, I can see her again.