Vanyel Ashkevron (demonbane) wrote in valarnet, @ 2012-04-22 12:46:00 |
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Current mood: | blah |
For all that I keep things as upbeat as possible in my posts here, and for all that I've been upbeat earlier today as I think about the weekend, there are some really tough parts too. I wasn't ready to be a parent when Medren came to stay with me, much less a SINGLE parent, and sometimes, like the last week or so, everything's hitting me all at once. We'll go from being perfectly happy and working well together to scenes like, well, right now.
He's upstairs sulking in his room, occasionally blasting music and being moody and distant, all because I tried to help him with his homework. No really, that was the kicker of the argument. I tried suggesting he do things a little differently, it ended in a fight and shoving things at me match, and me trying to calm him down resulted in that age old line nobody wants to hear about how I can't tell him what to do because You're not my dad, okay?.
I didn't mean to pretend that I WAS, and I really was just trying to help, but now it's a big mess. Medren's currently angsting out to music, angrily typing away to his friends, I think, and hating me right now. He's also not speaking to me when I try to go and talk to him.
I get he's going to be like this, and he's frustrated, and let's face it, the kid's had to deal with a lot of trauma. My brother's in Iraq, Medren's mother is a prostitute and quite possibly drug addict, and I know, I KNOW that's something that's going to get into a kid's psyche and really fuck them up. I guess I didn't want to admit that I don't know how to unfuck him up if there's a word like that. But now, well hell. I'm starting to think both of us need some help. And that's hard to admit because it brings up baggage of my own I thought I'd left behind.
At any rate, I'm pretty sure we need a shrink. And that part actually concerns me...