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Tweak says, "why would you do that"

Susan Ashworth doesn't mind the rain. (thecatwidow) wrote in valarnet,
@ 2015-08-25 15:45:00

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furiosa, nico robin, riddick, susan ashworth

I don't understand why I still live here. This place has taken near everything from me, and apparently it aims to take my sanity next.

Last week was intolerable.

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	imperator 2015-08-25 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	I spent last week keeping my head down. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't have much of a choice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	imperator 2015-08-25 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	I'm noticing there's not much chance to have a normal week here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	There is no normal here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	imperator 2015-08-25 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	I'm finding it hard to not... look like what I look like in my dreams. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	How so? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	imperator 2015-08-25 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	Well I shaved my head for starters. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	That's just practical. I'd do it myself if I didn't work in a hospital. Everyone would think I'd wandered off of oncology. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	imperator 2015-08-25 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	In the dreams it was to fit in. Here, I like the look. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	That's a much better reason to do it anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	riddickr 2015-08-25 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	Sanity's overrated. I hear you can't be insane if you ask if you are so hey, you're still ahead of the curve. Since it matters to you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	It's less about what other people think, and more that my mental state was altered against my will. I don't like doing things against my will. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	riddickr 2015-08-25 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	Don't know too many who do. I know me? I'm nobody's puppet and nobody's pet. You fight it? Last week? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:34 pm UTC (link)
	Of course. The only thing you can do is fight. I didn't do nearly any of the nasty things I wanted to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	riddickr 2015-08-25 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	Some people? Wouldn't have bothered. Would have given in. Let themselves do whatever their head told them to without hesitation. Not everyone knows how to fight. You got that going for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	I gave up in my dreams. Doesn't seem too smart to repeat the same mistakes while I'm awake. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	riddickr 2015-08-25 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	Doesn't seem too smart to put too much stock in dreams. No matter how real they feel. We all got one life. This one. Waste it dreaming and that's on you. No one else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	If it taught me a lesson, there's no harm in it. Smarter's better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	riddickr 2015-08-25 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	Surviving is definitely better. Getting through it is better than having it go through you. Think you could have done better? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	Than I did in the dreams? Absolutely. Well. Coming back from the dead's a neat trick, but I wouldn't have gotten dead to begin with. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	riddickr 2015-08-26 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Best you can do. Can't do anything more than the best you got. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Sometimes we don't know what that is. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	all_sunday 2015-08-25 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry to hear your week was a bad one, Susan. I can't say as mine was particularly wonderful either. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:22 pm UTC (link)
	What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-25 10:49 pm UTC (link)
	Nothing catastrophic. A few uppity and grumpy customers and clients I could not seem to please no matter how far backwards I bent. Compared to some, it appears I got off easy. How about you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	I wanted to kill everyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-25 10:58 pm UTC (link)
	Literally? That seems to have been going around with people on this Network. Well, at least it was last week. People seem to be back to normal. How are you feeling now? Better, I hope. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, yes. I'm an ED nurse. I could've done it easily. Much better. I just woke up one day and felt like my muscles just unclenched. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-25 11:13 pm UTC (link)
	I'm glad that you are feeling better. I've been told that this kind of thing happens from time to time. Which is annoying to say the least. When I said I was looking forward to some adventure, this was not what I had in mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-25 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	I don't like being so ... different. Out of control's ugly. I'm rather glad for that. If this was what you'd wanted, I'd be awfully sorry for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-25 11:49 pm UTC (link)
	Out of control can be down right frightening in situations like this. I'd be concerned as well. Adventure has its moments of uncertainty and fear, but usually its enjoyable. This, though, was anything but. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 12:28 am UTC (link)
	Exactly. This was terrifying. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-26 12:32 am UTC (link)
	A friend of mine got tazed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 01:02 am UTC (link)
	I suppose it could've been worse? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-26 01:07 am UTC (link)
	This is true. I guess it could always be worse, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 01:26 am UTC (link)
	Always. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-26 01:37 am UTC (link)
	I'm grateful that it's over now and everything is normal again. Well, as normal as it ever is, I guess. Do you like music, Susan? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 01:59 am UTC (link)
	Oh, me too. I can sleep now. I do - I play piano, actually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	all_sunday 2015-08-26 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	I love the piano. One of my mother's friends played as well. I enjoyed listening to him when I was little. I know a place that has live music during the week. I was wondering if you had a night free you might like to join me. It might be a good way to relax after such a terrible week. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thecatwidow 2015-08-26 08:20 pm UTC (link)
	That actually sounds nice. Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent)