If half of your personality becomes another person, and that person is missing, what does that mean for the rest of me? Am I not a full person anymore? Am I half dead? I guess it's a good thing I'm not religious, bringing a soul into all of this only makes it weirder.
I feel strange. Not unemotional, but temperate, I guess. Like things that used to super bother me or get to me don't as much? And the highs I used to chase aren't appealing to me anymore. I'm focused, for once. I didn't feel this okay before the dreams, and I've never felt it since. I don't understand. I want to, but I'm not upset that I don't.