InsaneJournal

I understand now why my dreams have been so confusing.

The Director had been torturing the Alpha A.I. to get it to split apart so he could implant Freelancer agents with the fragments. The fragment I got - Epsilon - was its memory. So since the Alpha was made from the Director, not only did I get all of his memories; the ones of loosing his wife and being obsessed with her death, if he could have saved her and wanting to save her, I got to experience all the torture the Alpha had gone through as well.

So last night I was just lucky enough to dream about when they implanted me with Epsilon and got to relive all that shit again, this time nice and concentrated.

I woke this morning not knowing who or where I was and I panicked. Fortunately, Kyu was with me and I think I'm doing better now.

I'm sorry if this is a little rambling, I'm still not quite myself, but I wanted to make note that I'd figured it out. I’m not going crazy, I’m not more than one person and hopefully that’ll be the end of all this confusing shit.