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Chris Keller [Oz] (willkillfortoby) wrote in utr_logs,
@ 2008-03-03 02:18:00

Entry tags:

chris keller, nonobits switcheroo, tobias beecher

Who Chris and Toby (Who is a WOMAN, WHAT?)
What Chris has the chance to do it with a woman. What do you think?
Where The Beecher/Keller household
When Roughly ten minutes after Beecher became a woman
Warning Hetero sex. Ew.

After a tense ride home from the station-or, really, a tense ride for Tobias, who just crossed his (her?) arms over his chest and glared while Chris grinned like a fool over how Toby was a hot chick-Chris finally pulled into the driveway at Beecher's home and stopped the car, looking over at Toby with a laugh.

"Well, honey, we're home," Something about the fact that the man he loved was a woman put a certain amount of ease in Chris over the fact that he was in love with a man. Figure that out.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 07:07 am UTC (link)

"Oh, for-" Chris rolled his eyes and lay back, "You aren't fucking pregnant, Beecher, Christ. This place doesn't hate me enough for that. This woman thing is only temporary, anyway, everyone's saying so. So calm the fuck down," He put a hand on Toby's back, "Come on, baby, in no time you'll have your dick back and when it comes, hey, I'll welcome you back with open arms, alright? Fuck, 'pregnant'. Right," That made Chris uneasy inside as he tried to appear amused by the very idea-What if it had? Could he stay with Toby that long? He always got bored with the women he was with, would that happen with Toby? He didn't think so when Toby was a man, he thought he'd had enough fucking conflict about that to last him a lifetime of interesting, but Toby as a woman...Was a woman. And though he loved women-he left women. He claimed to love Toby, to not be able to live without Toby, to need him-and he was working on adjusting to loving a man because he had loved Toby for so long, longer than anyone really, and Chris was loyal if not obsessive. Would he obsess over this woman? There just didn't seem to be any end in sight for the tests of Chris' love for Toby. He was just going to have to keep on going through this. Maybe this was his after life. Maybe this was his punishment? Or his reward? Who the fuck could tell?

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 07:14 am UTC (link)

"What if it's not?" Her voice was soft at that, musing, knowing daring to start this conversation was asking for trouble. Still, the way Chris' voice trailed off left Toby feeling uneasy, and he wanted to hear what the man had to say.

"I mean, fuck me getting pregnant. But... If I got stuck like this... would that make you happy?" She'd thought of it, of course- Chris being so enthused about being a woman, because no one could accuse him of being a fag for fucking a woman, right? And... maybe Chris would be better off if she stayed like this. And Toby herself was already a little fucked in the head, what's being castrated to add to that?

He was seriously contemplating some sort of bizarre sex change just to make Chris happy. And Tobias was the one preaching to Chris about his issues.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 07:20 am UTC (link)

"What?" Chris scowled at that, feeling...Confrontated, for lack of a better word. He sat up and stared at Toby, tried to figure out what that was supposed to mean as he tilted his head, not looking impressed with how sex lead to this, "What, you want to stay a chick?" He didn't know how to answer Toby's question, so he avoided it. He didn't know, and he stood up to grab his boxers, pulling them on, just to have something to do besides be stared at.

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 07:28 am UTC (link)

Toby seemed almost nonplussed by the reaction- in truth, he'd been expecting to get hit, although now that he thought about it, it was possible Chris wouldn't hit a woman. Ironic thought if there ever was one.

Sighing as she watched Chris get up, she looked back down at her hands to give him a reprieve from being watched, picking at the strangely long fingernails to distract herself.

"I know it still bothers you. That you... love me, as a man. And... this is me, just... a more acceptable version for you, maybe, I thought," She frowned, realizing that sounded accusational. "I know you love me. But I hate that you feeling ashamed of it. I don't- I don't know what I meant. Stupid, fucking female... hormone shit," It was an easy out, but it was true- at least Toby hoped it was, with the way the emotions seemed to be flooding over him.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 07:40 am UTC (link)

"It doesn't fucking bother me, Beecher, what bothers me is that I have to fucking bend over backwards for you to make you fucking even believe that I love you and now you are doubting it all fucking over again," Chris huffed, taking the offensive as he tried to ignore how Toby knew about how he was ashamed, how Toby wanted to change for him and how that made him feel, "I just want your love, Toby, and no fucking doubts, alright? I fell in love with the other you, the one with the fucking cock, alright? I gotta live with it and I'm not fucking dealing with you with tits because of me, alright?" He had no idea what he wanted and he was frustrated over that. He would have punched Beecher if he was a man at this moment to try and take some of it, but the fucker had to be a woman at this moment. And yes, Chris was one of those guys who didn't like hitting women. He would, but he didn't like it.

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 07:56 am UTC (link)

"One, they're pretty awesome tits. And two, if I doubted you loving me, there's no way in hell I'd be naked in front of you, in a very female body I just got a couple hours ago. Perspective," It was a cardinal rule in Tobias' patented crisis resolution handbook: Open with something either too humorous, or too absurd, for the other person to keep on their vindictive/raging/depressive streak. Now, for the real issue.

"Chris, look, I was just... I don't know. Forget I said anything, alright? You're right. This isn't permanent. Sooner or later, I'll wake up with my dick back, and no more of these goddamn female... issues." Chris saying he had to 'live with' his feelings for Tobias-the-man was worrisome, to say the least, but she'd already overstepped her boundaries. Chris was poised to leave, and she really had no intention of sleeping alone like this. So, with a sigh, she slid back down on the bed, moving to lie down to sleep.

"Please, baby, just come back to bed. I'm sorry I said anything. Just get some sleep,"

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 04:18 pm UTC (link)

Chris' jaw set-He had fought a lot with women, since he had been divorced four times, and he figured not saying 'You just wanted to get laid' about the naked comment was his best option. Shit, it was weird thinking of Toby like a chick. He'd say it to the man, even if Toby even as a man would probably be upset by it, but as a woman? It wasn't happening.

"I'm not fucking tired," He shook his head as he shrugged his shoulders, "Fucking wide awake now," He just padded for the door, not wanting to lay down and 'sleep it off'. He was arguing with a female Beecher about how he wanted the male Beecher back-What the Hell was he thinking? He could be with the female Beecher any time he wanted, not worried about having to deal with being called a fag, not worrying about if Toby wanted to be physical in public, all that. But He really loved Beecher as he was. And it was fucked up, in Chris' opinion, sure. But there it was.

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 09:27 pm UTC (link)

Toby sighed, reaching over the edge of the bed to grab the T-shirt up again to throw it on. She was pissed about Chris trying to avoid the conversation rather than just talk to her, but she knew logically she couldn't physically force him back. So she just held up her hands, lying back down.

"Fine, go ahead. I'll be here when you figure your shit out," Was that likely to set Keller off? Hell yes. But Toby, despite her current anatomy, was still a man. She'd do her damndest to fight Chris, if it came to that, just like always.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 09:37 pm UTC (link)

His shoulders stiffened before he turned back around, a tell to the anger that pushed through him-What was it about women and victimizing themselves, making themselves martyrs to a cause? Chris knew he was starting to think of Toby like much more of a woman than he was and he glared her down. Maybe he would hit a woman, seeing as it was only temporary.

"Fuck you, Beecher, I'm not going to suddenly embrace the fucking fact that you're a woman, alright? Fuck, I spend fucking years trying to love you, and I do, I do with all my fucking heart, and I'm accepting you're a fucking man, I'm trying, I'm changing for the fucking better and now, now you want me to fucking rejoyce in your fucking cunt?" He stepped toward the bed, body tense with his anger and frustration. The conflict in his own head was enough for an argument, really, seeing as he was already forming a rebuttle to his own words-yes, he should be happy, yes, he should accept it, it was easier than loving a man, he wasn't a fag then-but he wasn't about to show that weakness.

"Make up your mind, Toby. Make up your mind. Do you want to be a woman? Do you want me to love you as a fucking woman? Because I can. I can and will, but I can't be fucking toyed with!" He wasn't raising his voice, but it was getting colder as he stared at the woman on the bed, detaching her from Toby, not being able to fully connect the man he loved with this person. Not when she was being such a bitch.

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 09:57 pm UTC (link)

There was a small voice shouting the stupidity of all of this at Toby, from the back of her mind, but for the moment the cold glare- the challenge in it- was much closer at hand, more relevant. She slid to sit up again, not liking the vulnerability of lying on her back, and returned the glare full force.

"I'm not toying with you, you ass. I just-" A sigh, as she fought the crying from coming into her voice; god, she wasn't feeling like crying, she was pissed- she wanted to shout, to be able to speak up without the damn trembling in her voice. Fucking hormones.

"I just wanted to make this easier on you. Fuck, Chris, I know you're trying, alright? But you're miserable in it, I can see it, and I- I want you happy. It sounds trite, but if you'd be happy with me, with a cunt, why the fuck not? I don't have anything else here. Just you. Fuck, this house isn't even mine, these clothes aren't mine..." She let that trail off, trying to find the point.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 10:10 pm UTC (link)

There was a thrill to Toby saying Chris was all he had, but Chris wasn't going to take it at that moment. Maybe later, after a drink to settle himself down, he would, but right then he was just in the mood for a fight, and if it had to be verbal-he couldn't hit Toby, not when she was about to cry, for fuck's sake-so be it.

"Look at you! You're about to fucking bawl over a simple conversation," He waved his hand, "You and I both fucking know you wouldn't be happy like this with me. And as much as it fucking surprises you, I want you happy as much as I want myself happy," Hell, sometimes he put his own happiness well out of the way to make Toby happy. He had confessed to beating the man and indicated Schillinger, putting himself in protective custody away from him for Toby's forgiveness. He had pretended to be friends with Schillinger, he had gone to therapy with Sister Pete, he had killed men, and though he got his kicks while doing it, it wasn't for his happiness he was doing it. It was for Toby's. For Chris was sure Toby would be happy with him.

His lip curled up in a slight scowl as he added, "And what about Holly, huh? She gonna understand when you find her and you say 'Daddy's a girl because his fucking boyfriend wanted to fuck a cunt'?" Chris shook his head, knowing it was harsh to bring that up at the moment, but he thought it was needed. He thought the woman had to not only hear Chris' concern for her-since she obviously wasn't fucking believing it-but for Holly, where ever she was here. It was a struggle for Chris already, trying so hard to not fuck up. If he had to deal with an emotional Toby as well, he'd fall apart.

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otherofoz
2008-03-04 10:28 pm UTC (link)

She was about to find a retort when Chris brought up Holly, and she sat up and punched him in the jaw full force- still probably less that what she could have done as a man, but she hoped it hurt Chris' jaw at least half as badly as it hurt her hand. "Don't fucking bring Holly into this. I said it was a stupid fucking suggestion, you're the one who won't fucking let it drop."

Toby hadn't even thought of her daughter in this, and was suddenly over this conversation, thoughts turned to what he could do to get back, to get his daughter back. His daughter. Chris was right, he couldn't stay like this, if anything for Holly's sake.

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willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 10:35 pm UTC (link)

Chris caught the fist hard, and it caused him to stumble back in surprise, hand going to his jaw before he was launching forward, grabbing at Toby's jaw and glaring at the woman hard, his fingers digging in. He was set off, just as Toby had suspected he would be, what could he say? "Listen, you fucking bitch, you're just pissed because I'm right, and you finally see it. Took your fucking daughter to get it into your head, but there it is," He pushed Toby away and stood from the bed again, shaking his head with a dry laugh, no humour found in it, as he rubbed his hand against his jaw, "You hit like a fucking girl now more than you did before, Beecher."

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	otherofoz 2008-03-04 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	"Wonder the fuck why," She muttered, letting out a breath she didn't know she was holding once Chris stepped back. Glaring at the man as he laughed, Toby shook her head. "I said you're right. I said let it go, I'll turn back eventually. If you want a fight, fucking hit me alreadt." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

willkillfortoby
2008-03-04 10:51 pm UTC (link)

"Hey, I might be an asshole, but I don't beat women," Chris shrugged a shoulder, grinning now, even though his eyes were still dark with a threat of violence, "Told you, I like to have a bit of a challenge," He looked Toby over before something seemed to relax in his posture, "Now I need a fucking drink and a smoke," He said, and turned to leave the room. He didn't need to duke it out with Toby anymore. He knew he had gotten to her and that's what mattered at that moment.

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	otherofoz 2008-03-04 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	"Fine, whatever," Still shaking her head, Toby moved to lie down and roll over to sleep, figuring that 'drink and a smoke' comment wasn't an invitation. It wasn't like she had anywhere to go, or anything to do. So she'd wait for Chris to calm down, maybe get a fuck later, and then it'd be over. No big deal. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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