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Tweak says, "Boys have cooties."

Danny McCoy [Las Vegas] (idontsleep) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-07-21 18:09:00

Entry tags:

alternaverse plot, danny mccoy, mary connell

It is amazing how many people park in handicapped places without a handicapped tag. Or with a tag, but without the handicapped person with them.

[OOC: Danny's AU is that he was wounded in Iraq, and is confined to a wheelchair, both his legs blown off below the knee.]

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robyngraves
2008-07-21 11:39 pm UTC (link)

Ah, macho bravado. To tell you the truth I think it takes more strength to snuff out your own life than to stick it out. Hell, I've tried it myself a couple times but never managed it. Which is good I guess, since it gets better for me, because I can always make it better.

I used to say that I could have absolutely everything taken away, but as long as my mind was my own I'm still free. But on second thought, if I couldn't run, well.. That would be the end. Are your prosthetics going to let you run?

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idontsleep
2008-07-21 11:48 pm UTC (link)

I think you can make a case for it both ways, but killing yourself is a moment of strength, and it's a cop out. Sticking around means fighting every day. and you have to be strong to manage that.

I miss running. I used to jog, five miles, every morning. Hell, I'd give my balls just to be able to walk to the bathroom, now. A lot depends on my balance once I get the prosthetics.

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robyngraves
2008-07-21 11:59 pm UTC (link)

I guess I just don't get the point of fighting when the situation isn't going to improve. Sometimes there's nothing left but the white flag.

And the girl? Did you two ever get closure? Or does she continue every day to feel like shit knowing you're alive and she fucked up? Does she ever truly get to move on like that?

I love to run, to go until every part of me feels like I'm going to collapse, until my heart feels like it's going to explode. It's freedom.

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idontsleep
2008-07-22 12:07 am UTC (link)

And I don't see the point in giving up just because it's a little harder to get through the day. I'm not ready to die, I still have hope. And it's possible, when I get my prosthetics, I might be able to run again. Not like I used to, but running, just the same.

She...She doesn't know I'm home. I don't want to come between her and her husband. She's happy. She's in love. She's moved on.

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	robyngraves 2008-07-22 12:18 am UTC (link)
	Hope for what, exactly? What could possibly get better? Oh I know, maybe they'll someday develop robot legs that work like yours used to. Then you'd be a cyborg instead of a pirate. That'd be swell. Yeah, but that sure leaves you in the shitter, doesn't it? Well I guess there's always the amputee "Devotees" for your next relationship, if you ever get to move on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 12:22 am UTC (link)
	I think we both know that's not going to happen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 12:28 am UTC (link)
	Which part, robots or moving on? Either way man, I don't see much of a future for you. Sorry to say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 12:31 am UTC (link)
	Pick one, you're probably right. Doesn't matter. I'm alive. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Sure, if you call that shit living. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 12:44 am UTC (link)
	It's what I've got, it's all I've got. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 12:53 am UTC (link)
	I guess. To be honest I was kinda hoping to talk you into it. Y'know. Killing yourself. But all that hope and optimism is depressing me instead. Le sigh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 12:57 am UTC (link)
	Why would you want to talk me in to it? You don't even know me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:04 am UTC (link)
	Because you killed my mom and raped my dog. No I'm kidding, I just do this shit for amusement. Helps to ease the "dark urges." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:06 am UTC (link)
	Whatever works, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:13 am UTC (link)
	It didn't work, that's the problem. Are you sure you don't wanna kill yourself? For me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:15 am UTC (link)
	Pretty sure. What do you get out of it? You some kind of soul collector? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:17 am UTC (link)
	I get nothing but the sick satisfaction. I'm fucked up like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:23 am UTC (link)
	That's really fucked up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:31 am UTC (link)
	So they tell me. Like I said, everyone dies. Within a span of a hundred years. Nothing has ever convinced me that the exact day matters. But that doesn't explain why things dying gets me off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:38 am UTC (link)
	Well, sorry to disappoint. I may hate my life, but I'm not willing to give it up so easily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:42 am UTC (link)
	It's alright, I'll find something else to entertain me. Don't you worry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:45 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure you will. Try not to kill cute little puppies or kittens, yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:50 am UTC (link)
	Typical. They're always so concerned about the cute ones. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	idontsleep 2008-07-22 01:53 am UTC (link)
	It was a generic plea for all animals, really. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	robyngraves 2008-07-22 01:54 am UTC (link)
	Heh. Animals are safe tonight, babe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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