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Tweak says, "...use words like inventory"

Max Carrigan (notflatfooted) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-09-18 11:16:00

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I'm tired of being broken.

All it takes is one sound, and I'm back where I started two years ago, shellshocked and looking for someplace safe to hide.

But there's no safety in my old vices. Alcohol doesn't cover the pain over anymore, and morphine gives the nightmares a firmer hold on my brain. Even weed these days tastes bad, it's so fucking hard to find anything that's pure and not laced with whatever.

Even the girls only distract half my brain from the craziness, and I want it to end, goddammit.

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	notflatfooted 2008-09-20 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	Max Carrigan. Still a private, honorably discharged after banging my head and going batshit. Well, here I'm kind of a smoking, drinking leech, but that's beside the point. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sonya_blade 2008-09-20 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	I was close to being honorably discharged at one point, but they let me off with a Leave of Absence-on the condition I seek counseling from an approved therapist. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notflatfooted 2008-09-20 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	I took it and ran. No catch-22 shit for me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sonya_blade 2008-09-20 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	I didn't have a choice. Long story short, there were bigger things to worry about than bureaucratic assholes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notflatfooted 2008-09-21 01:07 pm UTC (link)
	You gotta do what you've gotta do. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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