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Hermione Jean Granger (ex_enchantin428) wrote in ultrarpg,
@ 2008-09-07 22:43:00

Who: Hermione Granger and Ronald Weasley.
What: Ron pays Hermione a little visit at the Library.
Where: Library.
When: Evening
Rating: TBD
Status: Incomplete.

Hermione really was in a weird mood. After her conversation with Ginny the other night she couldn't help but let those thoughts and emotions take control. Being in a relationship was something new and completely frightening to her. This was something she could truly fail at. What if she need up not being what Ron had really wanted? Logically she knew that she was more than just Ron. That if she and Ron didn't work out that there was a reason and she would continue on with her life, knowing that at least she tried. It was all such a strange line of thought. She and Ron had hardly been dating a week and she was already contemplating all sorts of things. Things she clearly had no reason to be thinking about.

Nestled back in the farthest corner at her favorite table she closed her journal. She did not need to be looking at that thing. She had come to the library to get things done. She'd been behind in her work and this was a perfect chance for her to get caught up. Ron, once again, had been her source of distraction. The last thing Hermione had wanted to do was fight with him, but it seemed that wasn't the plan for the day. Sighing quietly she rested back in her chair and pulled those out of control locks up into a tight bun. Her hair was frustrating her! Constantly falling into her face and Hermione had enough frustrations.

It was time to get back to work! Taking her quill in hand she began to chew lightly on the end. Her free hand flipped through the book of centaurs, trying to find exactly the thing she was looking for.

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red_knight
2008-09-13 11:40 pm UTC (link)

Ron didn't know if it would be best to talk. He could barely believe that they had been dating for such a short time and already they were sitting down to have their first talk. He didn't like talking very much; this was Hermione's department. He really did want to make her feel better, but he wished he could do it in a way other than talking. He took small relief in knowing that he hadn't actually done anything wrong this time. He was perfectly content to blame Ginny for anything that happened.

Ron checked that Crookshanks had wandered off into the other room before moving past Hermione towards the couch, brushing against her as he went. He plopped down unceremoniously and waited for her to join him. Now that he was actually in the position to be talked to, he felt suddenly nervous. He coughed to clear his throat and looked at is girlfriend's face expentantly, then quickly away.

"So um. What's going on?"

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ex_enchantin428
2008-09-13 11:53 pm UTC (link)

Looking at the situation objectively Ron really wasn't in trouble. It was more Hermione was slightly mental after letting her thoughts get way ahead of her.

A brow arched at him as he brushed past her. Her skin tingled where he touched. How Ron could make such small contact with her and still elicit that emotion from her was puzzling. Hermione followed him, sitting down close enough to him that when she tilted her body towards him her knee rested against his leg.

Merlin she was torturing him. The faster she had this talk with him the faster it would be over. She begn to pull at the crease her jeans made at her knee, watching that intently. "It really just stems from the conversation I had with your sister. It's not her fault, really. I just don't necessarily enjoy the idea that there is the potential for you to be thinking of someone else, Ron. Especially if, well, there is something happening." Her eyes looked up at him. "And don't try to tell me that you wouldn't react the same way if you thought I was thinking of someone other than you." She sighed. "I know that I'm not like most girls, Ron. I'm not what most people call beautiful and, honestly, it's something I am okay with. There is so much more for me to be worried about. Worrying over my hair is the least of my problems." Hermione wondered if she was really even making any sense.

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red_knight
2008-09-14 12:04 am UTC (link)

Hermione really was torturing Ron, but not quite in the way she thought. Her talk was sure to be awkward and he definitely still wished it didn't have to happen, but he was so distracted now by her close body, by her knee touching his leg and the way her fingers just couldn't seem to keep still.

She wasn't make sense, not to Ron. He didn't know why she was suddenly worried, why she thought that there could possibly ever be anyone else he would be thinking about. It kind of hurt him to know that she was worried about that kind of thing. Didn't she know what he was feeling this days? Why couldn't she just tell?

Ron sighed before reaching out and taking her hand in his own. The concept of her thinking about someone else, anyone else, especially while they were together, was enough to make him violent. He had to admit that maybe he understand what she meant, but why was she worried? Her closing statement made him drop her hand and look at her in surprise. He looked at her for a moment, more intently then he had in a while, and then he shifted his body so he was facing her completely. Ron leaned forward and cupped Hermione's face in his hands, getting so close that his nose bumped against hers.

"Hermione, I think you are the most beautiful girl in the whole world." It was possibly the sappiest thing he had ever said, but he meant it and it seemed like Hermione just really needed to know that.

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ex_enchantin428
2008-09-14 12:18 am UTC (link)

Hermione was completely oblivious to the way her own touch made Ron feel. For at least the time being. There were times that she knew, but in a moment like this she couldn't have been more unaware of how distracting she was being. She simply needed the close proximity.

Her thumb moved slowly over his when he took her hand. She knew that Ron must have thought she was mental. And for the first time in a really long time Hermione realized that Ron didn't have the emotional range of a teaspoon. He was actually quite good at this. Whether he knew it or not.

When he took her face in his hands she shut her eyes. It was in that single moment she realized how foolish she had been. His words only confirmed it for her. Her eyelids felt heavy as she opened them to look at him and at the same time her hands came up to grasp his wrists.

"You're always surprising me, did you know?" This was one of those moments. "I don't want to fail, Ron. What happens if I fail?" The root of the whole problem.

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red_knight
2008-09-14 12:36 am UTC (link)

Ron did not let go of Hermione's face. He just closed the gap between their faces by placing a quick kiss on her lips. Failure. He knew quite a bit about that kind of thing, but he didn't want to admit that the thought of failing in this relationship was more troubling to him than anything else had ever been.

"You won't fail, Hermione! We're supposed to be together, I think. Don't you .. feel it?" Well, it was official. Ron could never show his face to his brothers ever again. He tried to lighten the mood, to get rid of the heavy feeling he got in his chest when he thought seriously that way. "You know you can just hex me if I get out of line. I'm sure if anyone could cast a spell to control someone's thoughts, it would be you."

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ex_enchantin428
2008-09-14 12:49 am UTC (link)

Her grip tightened on his wrists, reveling in the quick kiss. Hermione appreciated his confidence and patience.

It was shocking. It was like someone had poured a huge bucket of ice water on her. Ron had just admitted to her that he felt like they were meant to be. It seemed a silly, fairytale-like fantasy, but so solid and real that it was hard to not believe. "Of course I feel that way. I've felt that way for ages, Ron. But that's the scary part. What if ..what if we feel like this and something awful happens? We could never go back." She bit down onto her bottom lip, wishing she could rid herself of these thoughts.

"I've never been more certain about anything." That was saying something. "But I can't stand the thought of losing you to someone else."

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red_knight
2008-09-14 01:15 am UTC (link)

For the life of him, Ron just couldn't figure out what Hermione was so worried. He knew what it all meant, he too had come to the 'we can never go back' mentality, but as far as he was concerned it was better to go forward than to stay the way they had been. He didn't want to go back, not after this. He studied her carefully, watching her bit her bottom lip and decided, much as he had done the last time they were in her flat together, that she was simply too far away from him.

In one swift motion Ron leave forward and scooped Hermione onto his lap. He had his auror training to thank for his honed sense of balance, something almost resembling grace, but not quite. Now that she was where he wanted, he took a moment to shift underneath her until he found a comfortable position. He folded his hands together over her stomach and pulled her against him, resting his chin on her shoulder.

He kissed her neck once, twice before speaking. His voice came out lower and more urgent than he had intended. "There was never anyone but you, 'Mione. There won't ever be. You won't lose me, I promise."

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ex_enchantin428
2008-09-14 09:40 am UTC (link)

The concern that she would lose him to someone else may have been silly, but a founded concern. It had seemed, to Hermione, that every last time she tried to move forward with Ron something went wrong. Something came up, someone came up. Now that she was here, invested, she knew she could never return to the way things had been. Forward was good, and she wanted to make sure that this was truly going to go that way.

A surprised 'oh!' passed her lips as he moved her.Like many times before Hermione was grateful to the Auror training that Ron had recevied. She relaxed herself into him, drawing patterns on his arms slowly.

Her head lolled to the side, allowing him a better access to her neck. There was something in his voice that caused the butterflies to settle in her stomach again. There were still so many questions that she wanted to ask, but instead she enjoyed the moment. "I adore you," she whispered softly.

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red_knight
2008-09-14 11:44 am UTC (link)

Ron was having a hard time with the notion that there would be enough girls clamoring after him to pose a threat to Hermione. He was not conventionally handsome. Too tall, too lanky (though he had traded some of that in for muscle in the last year or two) and too ... red. His hair was too messy, he got flustered too easily, there were freckles dusting his nose and his shoulders. He'd been awkward in school and it was preposterous to think things were much different now. Hermione, on the other hand, was quite different from her school days. Not in personality, exactly, but in appearance. Her hair was curly instead of bushy, her face had grown up, and she was even wearing small touches of makeup these days. If she couldn't already tell that he wanted her, that he thought she was beautiful, that he'd never choose anyone other than her, well, he didn't know how to make her see.

Ron kissed Hermione's neck again, a soft trail up her jawline. "You know it's me who should be worried, right?" He held her against him more tightly. Was that it? Could she really be done talking to him already? He had suspicions that she had more to say but he didn't want to ruin this.

Adore. That was an okay word. Ron was having trouble with words lately, especially words floating around in his head that he knew he was in no way ready to say. That didn't stop them from being there, of course, nudging at the edge of his brain like a persistent puppy wanting to go outside. Growing up in his family he'd heard the word love quite a bit. Even Lavender had told him that she'd loved him, but only in that way that teenage girls told everyone. He'd never said it back to her. Ron had never said it to any girl, actually, other than his mum. And maybe Ginny once or twice.

"I .. you too. Adore you too," Ron was mumbling again, trying not to hate himself for his emotional inadequacies.

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