"..Or until her husband disappears.. then she will be mine. She won't have a reason to avoid me anymore..." he plotted, more to himself than to Eward. Gulping down the brandy, he cut his eyes to Eward and sighed. "I don't know why I am like this over her. I've never.. felt like this.. It makes me sick and I can't eat or sleep.. and I don't want to tell her this because she may think I am some kind of dandy or something.."