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Jacen Solo actually won the Ultimate Showdown (jeditraitor) wrote in timestreamic,
@ 2016-09-26 11:22:00

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I expect you understand how my siblings will react to that shared dream.

I can hardly blame you without being a hypocrite but you didn't want to do it anymore than I wanted to hurt Anakin. Or it seems my Aunt in Ben's timeline.

Still, just be ready for it.

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	behindthemask 2016-09-27 01:22 pm UTC (link)
	You were challenging. Or maybe I was just frustrated with you. I'm not certain which, and I don't know if it matters which. He's been in my head for a while, yeah. I thought he cared at least when nobody else seemed to do so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-09-27 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sure I was frustrating. But you did learn something didn't you? You'll learn, or you should learn, that people lie. I lied, I lied a lot, to get you there, to guide you to where you needed to be. Snoke seems like he only cared for power. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-09-28 02:10 pm UTC (link)
	It made me think about some things differently. I lie, why should I expect others to be truthful? Snoke said that he wanted the galaxy to be stronger again. He thought that I could do that. But it may have been for him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

jeditraitor
2016-09-28 03:36 pm UTC (link)

Good. It's half the idea.

...Oh you shouldn't. Trust isn't easily won. We lie to each other a great deal. Lies and truth aren't so different when you look at the world a certain way.

Stronger. I hardly believe that. You're strong, as I am, as Jaina and Anain and Ben are, scions of a great power. But you were manipulated. And it weakened the whole. That's what I see. You''ll never have true power under the thumb of any person or any particular dogma.

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behindthemask
2016-09-28 05:03 pm UTC (link)

The galaxy needs strength. It was no better off than yours.

People think they want to do their own thing, but when crime comes to their system then they whine to the Republic. The Republic was impotent and could do nothing because everyone was so afraid of it becoming another Empire. Anyone in the First Order could see that, and could see that the strength we might offer would be better.

But that isn't entirely related to me. It's just a piece of it. I claim no dogma. I'm not a Jedi, or a Sith. I don't know what I am here in particular. There's no form to hold to.

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	jeditraitor 2016-09-28 05:44 pm UTC (link)
	Strength can be gained in other ways. You were lied to. Oh the Republic was a futile exercise. It seems in both worlds. Strength yes, but there do need to be limits. The Sith, it's...it's not a path worth walking. What do you want to be? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-09-28 06:35 pm UTC (link)
	The galaxy tries to move towards chaos. If there's no one to stop it, then it just slides there and everyone is hurt. I don't want to be a Jedi, or a Sith. I wanted to be like grandfather, but without either of those things hanging over me. I feel as if I've failed there. I'm not like everyone else though. I could never do 'normal' even if I wanted it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-09-30 03:18 am UTC (link)
	I tried. I just went too far. Look, you don't need to be either. Not Jedi, not Sith. Just...just you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-10-02 02:48 pm UTC (link)
	What if I'm not certain what that is? Who I am? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-10-02 03:13 pm UTC (link)
	Then take this time, the time you're here. I don't think you wake up one day and know who you are. It's a constant work in progress. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-10-02 03:20 pm UTC (link)
	It's not like there's much else to do. ~~Do you ever feel like you're stumbling around in the dark or is that just me~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-10-02 04:06 pm UTC (link)
	I think it might do us both good (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-10-02 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	Do you know? Who you are, I mean? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-10-02 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	I know who I'm not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-10-02 07:17 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I guess I've got a start on that one myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-10-02 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe. Or maybe you haven't quite worked that out. You thought you had but, its different, everything's different. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	behindthemask 2016-10-02 07:44 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not a Jedi. I'm not a politician like mother. What Snoke gave me seems false. That's a part of it. It angers me when I see people trying to ascribe limits on people. I don't know if that's something that's important or not. I'm very good at pulling information from people's heads usually. Probably not particularly helpful in the long-run. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jeditraitor 2016-10-02 07:57 pm UTC (link)
	I've been both. A Jedi and a politician. I've been a God. I've been a gardener. I've been a slave. Funny thing about the past. It informs but it doesn't have to be everything. Who are you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

behindthemask
2016-10-02 08:08 pm UTC (link)

I wanted to fix the galaxy for a while. I thought I could maybe. Grandfather didn't, but I could do what he didn't. Sitting from right here it feels foolish.

When I was a boy I remember a trip, diplomatic trip, my mother went on. I don't remember what Han Solo was doing, but he wasn't there. Neither was Luke. It was just me, and mother, and some of her advisers. We were staying in this resort, large, ridiculously opulent and over the top. They took the idea of the Republic at its word and figured out every way they could to present the excess of it once more. It was absurd.

But there was so ground there, and it was all very secure, and I was able to wander for the first time, maybe ever that I remember. I remember laying on the ground in the middle of a grove of trees just feeling all of it. Lifting things, and nobody telling me that I shouldn't. No fear from my mother of what I become. No limitations from Luke, or lack of understanding from Han.

Just, me, the force, and the feeling that I could do anything or be anything and connect so deeply to everything, all of it.

I don't know if I've ever felt that sense without some... insecurity that I am doing it all wrong.

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