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Tweak says, "Hey who turned out the lights?"

ᴍᴜʀᴘʜʏ ᴡᴀɴᴛs ᴀɴ (uprise) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-05-10 21:00:00

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!network post, johanna mason (au), john murphy

[Sam Wilson (Captain America)]

I have a girlfriend. I have a job. I have a pokemon. Why do I still feel so damn alone? What am I doing wrong here?

[Johanna Mason]

How do you feel?

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	first filter uprise 2018-05-11 03:51 am UTC (link)
	~~My mom blamed me for his de~~ ~~I watched my mom di~~ ~~I was thrown in the skybox at thirt~~ I don't know who Jemma Simmons is. Thompkins and I are friends. Why can't I talk with this to you? I don't need more people knowing this about me. We have a good thing going, no? Did I say something off? We can pretend I didn't say it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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captcommunist
2018-05-11 03:58 am UTC (link)

This isn't about you doing something wrong, it's about a doctor having better tools than me to know whether medication would help you. I'm not trying to get rid of you.

If you want we can put it on the table and just leave it for a while, keep doing what we're doing. I think it would be a good idea but I'm not going to make you and it's not like there's a time limit on it if you feel better about it later.

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	first filter uprise 2018-05-11 04:07 am UTC (link)
	I don't want medication. I don't want something fucking around with my head. Is that the only way to not feel useless? Yeah, let's leave it on the table for awhile. I'll think about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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captcommunist
2018-05-11 04:20 am UTC (link)

Not the only way, just sometimes a useful one. Like taking painkillers while you heal.

Keep in mind you've been living with this for a while, so not feeling better straight away doesn't mean you're doing something wrong. We're sort of trying to re-train your brain to think in different ways. It's like trying to change a habit you've had for a really long time, it takes practice.

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	first filter uprise 2018-05-11 04:27 am UTC (link)
	I always fuck up one way or another. Well, let's keep retraining this piece of shit and maybe it will be less shitty. I like painkillers, by the way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	first filter captcommunist 2018-05-11 04:32 am UTC (link)
	Well next time you do, you can pick yourself back up again and keep trying. You don't give up just because you make a mistake. They're pretty handy when you've got blood in places it shouldn't be, that's for sure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	first filter uprise 2018-05-11 04:37 am UTC (link)
	Only the fighters survive. That's for damn sure. You probably get this a lot but you do this whole talking thing pretty good. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	first filter captcommunist 2018-05-11 04:45 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, only it doesn't always just mean using your hands. It would probably be easier if it did. My daddy was a preacher. No one uses words quite like a black man with a congregation, and he was one of the good ones. I was about the same age as you were when he died. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	first filter uprise 2018-05-11 04:52 am UTC (link)
	That's where that quick thinking comes in. Oh, really? Didn't take you for a religious man. I bet your dad had some pretty good words to have such an impact on you. I think they all do, huh? Would it be out of line of me to ask how he died? Don't have to answer it. I know how digging up memories can be a pretty shitty thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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captcommunist
2018-05-11 05:06 am UTC (link)

Well I work with aliens and Norse gods and people who get their powers from all kinds of different deity so I figured pretty quickly that religion should be about what works for yourself and it doesn't much matter if someone else believes different.

Nah, it's cool. He was trying to talk some guys down from a fight and one of them didn't take it so well. I was mad as hell for a while, but eventually I started thinking if he came back and got to do it again, he'd probably do the same damn thing. Him being like that was the reason people who knew him were so willing to help out later when we needed it and I wasn't going to disrespect that by forgetting everything he tried to teach me.

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