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Jon Kasiya | Amun (mysteryofset) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-02-25 13:57:00

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amadeus cho / hulk (616), anya corazon / spider-girl (616), betsy braddock / psylocke (616), jon kasiya / amun (616), laura kinney / wolverine (616)

I suppose, now that we are heading back on the ship, we can resume our schedule of mindless diversion.

But I wonder. Has anyone else considered quitting the assassin game?

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x_facility
2018-02-25 11:30 pm UTC (link)

Maybe normal people just don't get it as much or often. Like if we started doing hardcore drugs early and quit them but there's nothing that gives the same high that's more healthy or safe.

Not really. It used to be that I would eliminate a target at any cost. Now I have to think about how it affects the other people and try to avoid collateral damage, and trying not to kill a target limits the number of methods I could employ. It's... There was a certain amount of thought involved, before, but in comparison it was mindless. I didn't consider the whys, or understand enough context to see potential alternatives to solving a problem.

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mysteryofset
2018-02-25 11:46 pm UTC (link)

Perhaps a chip is not the worst recourse. Those endeavors that have come closest to the thrill of assassination have not been much better for safety or legality. Street fights, anti-Maggia work, the like.

I would never have called assassination thoughtless. There are considerations of messaging and client wishes, the game of access and exit, personal branding. Though there is far less personal, perhaps, and more resource intensive operating alone.

I suppose where I find I was thoughtless is less in regards to actions and more, personal will perhaps?

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	x_facility 2018-02-25 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	Yes, personal will. I think that's what I mean. I didn't consider why I was doing anything. I didn't really know how. No one tried to tell me it was a holy duty, I was just a tool that they spent a lot of time and money to make and that's what I was used for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

mysteryofset
2018-02-26 12:04 am UTC (link)

The holy duty line goes far in both giving an assassin a purpose and resolving qualms. 'We serve as a tool of the justice of Set bringing people to their cosmic justice they richly merit. The weak are found failing of Anubis' measure and culled from existence.' It gives a quite solid direction.

But, my father was of my Order, as his before him and so forth, and killed by my Order, so I suppose there was always some disconnect in accepting that which, when I fell afoul of them on my own rights, I found that.. I too did not want to die?

It is difficult to see oneself as a tool of justice in a system that seemed ever more unjust. But, without that framework, I do not know how to see myself at all.

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	x_facility 2018-02-26 12:09 am UTC (link)
	It sounds like it might be easier to just get a baby and never let them around anyone else. When I escaped I didn't know how to interact with anyone so they almost caught me a few times. I stood out a lot. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mysteryofset 2018-02-26 12:17 am UTC (link)
	Then they would suck at infiltration. You were not also trained socially? At least enough to pass as a student, or aide, or servant for so long as a job took. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	x_facility 2018-02-26 12:24 am UTC (link)
	Briefly, for missions. I was never expected to need to pass for more than a few hours, and normally I would be told what to expect. There are some areas I was more adept in and others that I knew nothing of. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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