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Tweak says, "No"

✷ ✷ ✷ ɐılnɾ ✷ ✷ ✷ (hurlyburly) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2018-02-23 16:37:00

Entry tags:

!network post, charlie weasley (ex), ginny weasley, julia wicker, kylo ren / ben solo, penny adiyodi, percy weasley, petunia dursley (au), quentin coldwater

[Filter: Brakebills + Kylo + Petunia]

Q is alive and fine. ~~I'm going to kill him.~~

[Filter 2: Molly Weasley, Ginny Weasley, Percy Weasley, Charlie Weasley 2]

Hi,

You're all Weasleys that answered my survey and I was wondering if I could ask you a question? I hope it's not to awkward to bring this up, but in the books there was mention of a clock your family had that allowed people to know if everyone was okay or not.

I don't suppose you could share information on how you enchanted such a clock? ~~Hopefully you didn't just buy it?~~

Thanks,
Julia Wicker

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	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-24 09:37 pm UTC (link)
	He's been trying to find a way back to her and back to Fillory. But maybe I deserve it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-24 10:04 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, odds are she isn't there, so that would be bad. But do you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-24 10:14 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. It feels like I do, but that might just be me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-24 10:21 pm UTC (link)
	Have you talked about this with Sam? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-24 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	I feel weird talking to Sam right now with all this Steve weirdness going on. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-24 10:45 pm UTC (link)
	That's problematic. Unfortunately there isn't many in the way of choices. I got the impression Sam's professional. Talking to Charles has been a lot more helpful than I'd have liked to admit when I started. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-24 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	~~This is probably why I should never try to get involved with anyone~~ I know. I just hate feeling [...] this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 02:59 am UTC (link)
	Talk to Sam, Quentin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-25 03:11 am UTC (link)
	Okay. ~~I thought it was going to be~~ ~~It was getting better~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 03:14 am UTC (link)
	I had to message Charles after I lashed out at you. I knew I needed to. It's okay to get help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-25 03:33 am UTC (link)
	I'm really sorry about your dad, Alice. I'm not mad about what happened. I get it. Yeah. I know. It's just that sometimes I wish I didn't need it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 03:34 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry I reacted the way I did. It was like a flood of information all at once and it was hard to place the feelings where they needed to be. I know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-25 03:38 am UTC (link)
	I'm an easy target. It's fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 04:02 am UTC (link)
	No, I needed someone to blame and it's easier to blame you than myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-25 04:09 am UTC (link)
	Understandable. I just am in the habit of blaming myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 04:17 am UTC (link)
	I know. But maybe you should save it for when it's deserved. Or try to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q king_quentin 2018-02-25 05:10 am UTC (link)
	Only me to save myself from my bullshit now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	alice/q phosphoromancy 2018-02-25 05:17 am UTC (link)
	I don't think so. Julia's made it clear she's on your side. I am, too. Even if it hasn't seemed like it, I'm always on your side. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

alice/q

king_quentin
2018-02-25 06:03 am UTC (link)

I think I kind of need people on my side. Even though my side's pretty fucked recently.

[...] I tried not to feel anything, but it didn't work. Now we can't even be friends and I don't know how to [...] how to even deal with this. I wish we'd just stayed friends. If Men in Black existed, I would totally let them neuralyze me. Maybe it would make it easier. Only then I'd probably do something stupid like get feelings all over again, so I guess I might as well just hate myself in my room for ruining yet another [...] I don't even know what to call it. And I think the part that makes it worse than anything is that I'm not even the one that fucked me over in the end. It was Eliot. I fucked me over a little, but I could have at least fixed it so we were friends at the very least. I can deal with being angry at me, that's normal, that's just who I am, but now I'm angry at Eliot and I can't even think about him without feeling angry and I hate it. He's my best friend. I mean, there's Julia, but [...] but

I miss my best friend and it's not even been a full day and I just can't.

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phosphoromancy
2018-02-25 06:25 am UTC (link)

I was on your side even when we weren't talking. I hated us not talking. And that's okay. None of our sides are really good at being not fucked anymore. I'm kind of used to it.

[...] That wouldn't do you any good. We don't need anymore timeloops or missing memories in our lives, do we? You'd just be bound to possibly repeat yourself. You'd be like Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet. [...] Okay, I mean, alright. If it is that important to you, why don't you speak up? If the issue is what Eliot said, you need to go and say, "No" to [...] ~~Steve?~~ the person. Don't let Eliot do the talking for you and engage a conversation yourself. And if the person doesn't listen to you, then, well maybe it wasn't going to be fixable to begin with?

Does Eliot know you are upset?

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alice/q

king_quentin
2018-02-25 06:38 am UTC (link)

Yeah. I'm sorry. At least we're talking now. Right?

It would definitely be like that and it would be really messy and weird. [...] I'm afraid to make more of a mess. And there's no saying I didn't fuck myself over more than Eliot ever could. I just [...] miss my friends. Maybe. I don't know. Maybe the universe remembered that having friends wasn't something I was allowed to do again. Or maybe it put up an ultimatum I didn't know about. I don't know. I wish things were easier, but I know they aren't. I'm just afraid.

I think he figured it out by the fact that I haven't talked to him since then.

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