alice/q
I think I kind of need people on my side. Even though my side's pretty fucked recently.
[...] I tried not to feel anything, but it didn't work. Now we can't even be friends and I don't know how to [...] how to even deal with this. I wish we'd just stayed friends. If Men in Black existed, I would totally let them neuralyze me. Maybe it would make it easier. Only then I'd probably do something stupid like get feelings all over again, so I guess I might as well just hate myself in my room for ruining yet another [...] I don't even know what to call it. And I think the part that makes it worse than anything is that I'm not even the one that fucked me over in the end. It was Eliot. I fucked me over a little, but I could have at least fixed it so we were friends at the very least. I can deal with being angry at me, that's normal, that's just who I am, but now I'm angry at Eliot and I can't even think about him without feeling angry and I hate it. He's my best friend. I mean, there's Julia, but [...] but
I miss my best friend and it's not even been a full day and I just can't.