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Tweak says, "Evanescence Rules!"

Ren Waugh-Solo (behindthemask) wrote in thedisplaced,
@ 2017-11-19 20:45:00

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anakin skywalker, kylo ren / ben solo

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Are you awake?

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balancetheforce
2017-11-21 11:27 pm UTC (link)

Why do you continue to split your identity like that?

You haven't had access to their "stories" like they've had ours. If you continue to see their worries as "bullshit" instead of understandable, you're going to make a lot of enemies, or at least have a lot of people greatly disliking you.

I don't know. But I have to hope it is and act as if it's possible or I'll never be better than I've been. I can't just ignore what I've done or say it doesn't matter here, but I have to actively seek to be better.

I worry that you'll be like me. That someday you'll do to him what I did to Padmé.

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behindthemask
2017-11-22 12:40 am UTC (link)

I don't know. I'm not certain I know how not to.

If I spent my time going out and watching everyone's stories and then pointing out their mistakes on the network for the world to see, people would consider that bullshit, and rightly so. I don't care if people like me, I just want my mother to be able to read the network without worrying about someone callously reminding her about all the mistakes her son makes.

I wouldn't hurt Eliot. Not ever. He's the only reason I think I maybe could [...] change and like who I might be.

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balancetheforce
2017-11-22 01:28 am UTC (link)

I don't think it's about your mother's potential discomfort at all. You and I have committed atrocities that are deserving of condemnation. They aren't mere "mistakes" being pointed out and reducing them to that is, to use your word, "bullshit."

I never wanted to believe I was capable of hurting Padmé. If he is your only reason, what happens if he disappears from this place?

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	behindthemask 2017-11-22 01:55 am UTC (link)
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