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Lily Evans (aimed_curse) wrote in the_recruitment,
@ 2012-03-07 01:51:00

Entry tags:

! 03/1977, ! thread, char: amycus carrow, char: rabastan lestrange

Who: Amycus and Rabastan
What: A long overdue conversation
When: Tuesday night/Wednesday morning
Where: Their room
Rating: PG
Status: Incomplete

Amycus had stayed in the library until Madam Pince had thrown him out and had then gone into an empty classroom to study in peace. He cautiously made his way back to the dungeons, trying to avoid being seen by any of the Prefects that were making their rounds since it was after curfew. He walked through the portal, glad to find the Common Room empty for once. He thought for a minute about studying a bit longer before heading to bed but he dismissed the thought, recognizing it as the delaying tactic it was. He didn't know what Rabastan wanted to talk to him about and didn't have any reason to really think that it was something bad. It was probably just about some problem in class or with one of their housemates, something that could be easily taken care of and then forgotten.

He opened the door to their dorm room and stepped inside, finding himself glad for what felt like the thousandth time this school year that Lucius wasn't in there with them anymore. He saw Rabastan still awake and smiled. "Hey," he said sitting down on the edge of his bed and placing his books carefully behind him. "You wanted to talk about something?"

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_alwaid
2012-03-08 04:16 pm UTC (link)

Rab fidgeted quietly for a moment, trying to figure out exactly how to explain his reasons.

"I, I need to prove myself." He finally admitted, not looking over at his friend. "I need Rod, my family to know that I can be who they want me to be. I've been practicing curses, and, and Dark Magic my whole life, but if I never u, use it, I might as well not know any. I, I want them to be proud of me.'

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aimed_curse
2012-03-08 06:14 pm UTC (link)

Amycus watched his friend quietly, trying to give him the time he needed to answer. He frowned at Rab's renewed insistence that he needed to prove himself but knew that it was worthless to try and argue with him about it.

"Explain something to me. Why is it that everyone seems so obsessed with being who their families want them to be?" he asked softly. "Why can't you be happy with who you are and tell your family to piss off if they can't accept it?" he added looking up at his friend's face. He knew that what he was saying might upset Rab but he needed to know.

He stopped himself from saying anymore as Rab's returned stutter finally registered with him. "Just ignore me. I haven't been sleeping well lately. Keeping stuff from you is difficult," he said, his voice trailing off as he realized how worthless his explanation sounded.

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_alwaid
2012-03-09 02:23 am UTC (link)

Rabastan looked his friend over carefully, noticing his hooded eyes and woried expression. He knew what Am didn't want him to join the Death Eaters, Hell, he would have felt the same way if their positions were reversed. Amycus was part of a special, elite group of purebloods, people who could face danger with a sneer and didn't balk away from the hard jobs. Rab was none of those things. What if Amycus got him in, and he shamed them both? Would Am be kicked out as well? It wasn't fair of him to ask this of his friend. He should never have put him in such an awkward position.

Stupid stupid stupid! I should have just done it on my own, he'll never back out now, not once I brought Lucius into it. And that was a truly low blow. What was I thinking!

"I-I'm s-sorry," he stuttered out, hating himself. Not only was he being cruel, he couldn't even form a proper sentense.

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aimed_curse
2012-03-09 03:43 am UTC (link)

Amycus closed his eyes at the sound of Rab's stutter. "It's alright. Just let me figure out a way to find out okay? I know who the best person to ask about it is but I don't want to deal with him anymore than I have to," he said, opening his eyes and forcing himself to smile at his friend.

"Did you send one of your paintings to that girl who was injured?" he asked, trying to change the subject to anything but the Death Eaters.

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_alwaid
2012-03-09 04:02 am UTC (link)

Rab had a sinking feeling Am was talking about Lucius, and felt even worse. Amycus hated Lucius, he didn't want to be the reason they had to interact

I should go to him myself, so Amycus doesn't have to

He almost missed the question, and had to snap his focus back quickly.

"Lily Evans?" He blushed, but nodded. "I just feel bad for her. No one deserves to be treated like that...'

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	aimed_curse 2012-03-09 04:57 am UTC (link)
	Amycus had to bite down on his tongue to avoid blurting out his disagreement with Rab's opinion. He knew that his friend didn't share all of his opinions and he'd never tried to force his opinions on Rab. "That was nice of you," he said neutrally. "Why didn't you tell her it was from you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_alwaid 2012-03-10 04:34 pm UTC (link)
	"I didn't want her to know. Just because I, er, s-sent it, doesn't mean I w-want it g-getting out that I did." He ducked his head, painfully embarrassed. He should have known Am would realize who it was from, but he hadn't expected Lily to make a big deal of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aimed_curse 2012-03-11 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Amycus couldn't help but smile at Rab's confession. "Probably a smart move. She seems a bit prickly after what happened," he said. "What painting did you send her? One I'd seen?" he asked. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

_alwaid
2012-03-11 08:11 pm UTC (link)

"I can't blame her." His thoughts drifted sharply to Rodolphus and the rumor that he and Belatrix had been the ones to kidnap the girl. He knew it was probably true, but he also didn't really want to believe it. Rod wouldn't torture someone for no reason, would he?

Of course he would. You're not that stupid

"I, uh, sent her a Lily. It wasn't that good, I just sort of threw it together. But I felt," like I needed to apologize for what my brother did, "bad." he ended lamely.

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aimed_curse
2012-03-11 09:35 pm UTC (link)

Amycus shrugged noncommittally about blaming her. A small part of him could understand the girl's attitude but his pride had still been a bit pricked by her responses to him on her journal. Although he really should have tried harder to resist the temptation to try and draw her in to his little game with her friend Molly.

"Seems appropriate. I'm sure it was great Rab," he said giving him a half smile. Sometimes it seemed like his friend really didn't realize how talented he was. He used his wand to open the window and summon the ashtray he kept on his nightstand before pulling his cigarettes out of his pocket and lighting one, slipping the pack back into his pocket and propping himself up on one arm.

"So I asked Riona to date me last night," he said casually.

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_alwaid
2012-03-11 09:41 pm UTC (link)

Rab felt his heart sink into his stomach at those words, but he quickly pushed the feelings away. He had no right to be so possessive of Amycus, and he was happy for him. Riona was really nice.

"Yeah? W-What did she say?" Shit, stupid stutter. He was going to have to watch that. "If she didn't say yes she's an idiot."

He threw Am what he hoped was an interested smile. He would never want his friend to think he didn't approve, he did! Am and Riona would be really good together.

And you can't have him, so at least someone can

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aimed_curse
2012-03-11 10:46 pm UTC (link)

Amycus frowned a bit when he noticed Rab's stutter returning as he wondered whether he'd missed something the last few weeks. What if Rab was interested in Riona and he hadn't realized it? If his friend was interested in her he'd have to tell Riona...something. He didn't know what yet but he wouldn't want to get in the way of Rab's happiness.

"She asked if she could think about it," he said, taking a long pull of his cigarette. He absently knocked some of the ashes off onto the ashtray that was laying on the bed beside him. "A reasonable request. I kinda dumped the idea on her out of nowhere," he added.

"You're not interested in Riona are you? Because if you are I'll back off, tell her I thought it over and we're something."

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_alwaid
2012-03-11 11:04 pm UTC (link)

Rab shook his head, wondering where Amycus had ever gotten an idea like that. Well, he supposed she was the only girl he'd ever actually talked to, but that didn't mean he was interested. She was nice, and he couldn't deny she was beautiful, but he didn't think of her that way.

"No, I don't. Honestly Am, you should go for it. She's a nice girl."

He was sort of glad Amycus' mind had gone straight to Riona though, meant he was hiding it well."

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aimed_curse
2012-03-11 11:22 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah she is," Amycus said, still concerned that something was bothering Rab. "I guess all I can do is hope she decides to take me up on it," he added. "And figure out how to stay friends if she decides no."

He felt a yawn threatening and stubbed his cigarette out in the ashtray, sending it back to his nightstand with a flick of his wand as he stretched out on Rab's bed, making himself comfortable. He didn't really feel like going to his bed just yet. It wouldn't hurt anything for him to stay here and talk with Rab a little longer.

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	_alwaid 2012-03-12 01:46 am UTC (link)
	Rab suppressed a small smile as Am stretched out on his bed, settling for laying down beside him instead. "She will." He scooted over slightly, so they were shoulder to shoulder. "She's be out of her mind to turn you down." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aimed_curse 2012-03-12 04:15 am UTC (link)
	"I hope so," Amycus said quietly. "It's happened before," he said, turning his head to look at his friend, smiling at him. He always felt comfortable with Rab. Even when they were lying like this. "She wouldn't be the first girl too," he said softly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_alwaid 2012-03-12 04:22 am UTC (link)
	Rab frowned slightly. He thought he knew everything about Amycus, but this was new. "Who else have you asked?" He'd honestly thought that it had just been Alecto, up till now. But of course that couldn't be true. He was just surprised Am hadn't talked to him about it. "Who would be that stupid?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

aimed_curse
2012-03-12 04:37 am UTC (link)

"Just a girl back in Greece. I fancied her a bit until two years ago. She kept turning me down because I was a year younger than her and then I found out that she was pregnant by some muggle brat lived down in the village. Who was two years younger than me," Amycus said sounding bitter. He didn't normally like to think about her and if he hadn't been so tired he probably wouldn't be now.

"I used her to demonstrate my mastery of the Imperius Curse," he said with a half smile.

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	_alwaid 2012-03-12 04:52 am UTC (link)
	Rab was a little horrified by Amycus' admission, but he kept it well hidden. "Well, she didn't know what she was missing," he said firmly. "And girl would be lucky to have you Am. I mean it. Riona will say yes.' (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aimed_curse 2012-03-12 05:06 am UTC (link)
	"Honestly I think it was for the best. She'd have hated London and I have to be here for Him," Amycus said his eyes half-closed as he fought against sleep. He raised his arm to see his Mark and looked back over at Rab. "I'm glad I don't have to hide this anymore from you. Keeping the charm going all the time was exhausting," he said half asleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_alwaid 2012-03-12 05:17 am UTC (link)
	Rab began running his fingers through Ams hair, playing with the ends and lingering on his scalp. "I'm glad too. I, I don't like the thought of us having secrets. Your the one person I know I can tell anything." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aimed_curse 2012-03-12 05:25 am UTC (link)
	Amycus closed his eyes as the feel of Rab's fingers running through his hair soothed him. He could fall asleep right there and probably sleep straight through til morning. He'd done it so many times before. "It's as hard not telling you as it is not telling Alecto. Maybe harder. You're here more," he said, not even sure he was making sense anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

_alwaid
2012-03-12 05:28 am UTC (link)

Rab smiled softly, knowing if he kept this up Amycus would just fall asleep. He liked it when they shared a bed, he always slept better when he could feel the other boy breathing.

"It's alright. I understand. Some secrets aren't your to tell."

He kept his fingers working, occasionally moving to to lightly caress his shoulders before moving back to his head and neck.

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	aimed_curse 2012-03-12 07:21 pm UTC (link)
	Amycus smiled at the feel of Rab's fingers caressing him, falling asleep under the gentle pressure as he snuggled in closer to Rabastan. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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