heartfeltsanity (heartfeltsanity) wrote in the_dome, @ 2013-06-10 01:10:00 |
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Entry tags: | 04-01-2017, audrey, audrey and finn, finn |
Maudlin
Who: Audrey and Finn
Where: school playground
When: late afternoon
Audrey left the crowd behind. People were picnicing in central park there, and as she passed someone's unattended basket, she quietly and totally unobtrusively lifted a beer from it. She walked away from the proceedings entirely. She kept walking until she found herself at the playground at the school, and she sat down on the merry go round, cracking the beer to sip it. She was a massive lightweight. She knew that. And she didn't know if this was enough to get her buzzed or not but she'd take the chance.
Watching the world slowly spin around her, she felt miserable. She had no idea what came over her. She just felt threatened when those dumb cousins were falling over themselves like perfect twiggy little tramps to get to the guys. Hell, she was being jealous, and apparently petty on top of that, because she was pretty sure those girls didn't deserve even her passing nasty thoughts. So she felt guilty about that, and that she was being stupid about the guys. Hell, this was even what she wanted, right? She wanted them all to get lives, and build something here.
She knew what it was, though. Deep down, she knew she didn't have anyone but them. And she could see the start of it now. They get girlfriends, and suddenly their attention was elsewhere, they spent more and more time out with them, and Audrey stayed home doing lonely dance recitals in the living room.
God, stop it, you sound so emo. she berated herself. But she just couldn't quite manage to shake the feeling. At least, not yet.