katniss everdeen - au, jaha (burningwings) wrote in the100, @ 2015-12-29 22:53:00 |
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Entry tags: | !network post, katniss everdeen, peeta mellark |
backdated to yesterday!
PEETA
I started telling people about what I've done and I can't stop myself. I can't stop myself from talking. I didn't even know him and I told him that I've killed people. Children. An unarmed civilian. You know I've killed people but I can't stop telling you, either. I knew people were saying everything out loud but I thought it would be different in writing so I looked at the network and now I've gone and
I'm going to tell you something that makes you afraid of me, too. I can feel it. I'm terrifying and you know it, even if it's Snow in your head telling you that I am. He's right. I'm awful and violent and manipulative and a liar but I've never lied to you except by omission. Damn it. I haven't lied to you, just kept things from you. Not very many things, but sometimes it hurt you anyway because I had an answer that you wanted to hear but I wasn't sure it was true so I couldn't say it. I don't think that really counts as lying, but maybe it does. But everything I've said is true, I swear, it's true and now you know for sure it's true because I couldn't lie right now to save my life and sometimes I need to lie to save my life, what if that happens and I can't
Please come and take this away from me, I can't stop writing