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Max Guevara (seattleangel) wrote in the100,
@ 2015-12-19 18:08:00

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(006) Max Guevara
~~At least there's only one of Lydecker.~~

Well, that was an experience I'm all right not repeating ever.

[Jacen]

You make it out okay snake boy?

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	Max+Jacen balancepoint 2015-12-21 01:15 am UTC (link)
	Its part of it. I've changed since they last saw me. I think they're starting to realise how much. Its not a bad change or anything, I've just, been through a lot. The kind of thing you don't come out of unchanged. They just don't know what to make of it. And, y'know, Amphistaff's are usually in the hands of the enemy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Max+Jacen

seattleangel
2015-12-21 01:47 am UTC (link)

They're just getting to know you again. Only it's more disconcerting than getting to know someone for the first time, because they think they know you - but they don't really know you as you are now, right? I mean, I get that.

I've got... There were others like me. We call each other our brothers and sisters - we were all created at the same time, trained in the same place. And I went looking for some of them this past year and found some of them. But we'd all changed, and I think sometimes they didn't like how I had. Sometimes it was the other way around. It happens, but it's always weird to sort out who the person is now.

Do they know what you've been through?

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	Max+Jacen balancepoint 2015-12-21 02:17 am UTC (link)
	They know I got taken. They probably think it wasn't good. And a lot of it wasn't. But I learned a lot too, It taught me more about the universe than I could have imagined. And I did a lot of good there. But I'm not sure how we'll they'd understand it all. How did you cope with the changes in your siblings? The changes you didn't like? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max+Jacen seattleangel 2015-12-21 02:21 am UTC (link)
	As bad as the not good things can be, you can learn a lot from those things too. They help you figure out what you can do and what you need help for. And who you can count on for that help when you need it. It depends on the siblings and changes. Some of it was a difference of opinion. In some ways those were the easy changes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max+Jacen balancepoint 2015-12-21 02:27 am UTC (link)
	You're pretty smart. And good at the advice. I just think maybe this one isn't so easy to work out. The difference of opinion thing, thats gonna be a whole other issue. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Max+Jacen

seattleangel
2015-12-21 02:34 am UTC (link)

I didn't say they were easy, just the differences of opinions were sometimes easier to deal with than the other changes.

One of my sisters had a kid of her own. She'd gotten married. The guy that was trying to find us came after her, and her family. We actually had similar philosophies on things I think, but it didn't work out so well.

I think the important thing, whatever the situation is that you have someone who can support you through them. At least, if I've learned anything this year, I think that's what I've learned.

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	Max+Jacen balancepoint 2015-12-21 03:01 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. Supporting me, they'll do that. If they find out the truth. Thing is I really really don't want them to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Max+Jacen

seattleangel
2015-12-21 03:59 pm UTC (link)

Maybe they won't have to.

Here's the thing though. I know a thing or two about carrying things no one else knows about and about not wanting to say anything and worrying that if people found out something terrible would happen. Maybe even if that terrible thing was only that they wouldn't want to be around me. Which in the scheme of terrible things, not really the most important one. And every time so far, people have proven me wrong to worry.

You too, by the way. You didn't even blink. Of course you can heal me with your brain so a little weird DNA probably isn't as big a deal where you're from. Still.

You know what I really wish I had?

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	Max+Jacen balancepoint 2015-12-21 06:17 pm UTC (link)
	You're no different than anyone else. Maybe that's my background but what makes you special isn't your DNA. ...What do you wish you had? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Max+Jacen seattleangel 2015-12-21 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	Hot chocolate. It seems like we maybe both could use some. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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