leia organa (anotherhope) wrote in the100, @ 2016-04-06 07:01:00 |
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Entry tags: | !mount weather, !network post, edmund pevensie, iskierka, jessika pava, leia organa, luke skywalker, mara jade skywalker |
We have all suffered great losses in this exodus, and I won't pretend that we're not still reeling from it. I wish that I could say that it gets easier. I wish I could say that the pain will end some day, but that would be a lie. It comes and goes in storms, in waves that sometimes threaten to swallow you whole. Then you'll find some peace when the storm is over. You're still in the ocean, however, and a storm will come back. They always do, except you know that you can survive them. You can prepare for them.
I'd like to take a moment of silence for those we have lost in this recent exodus and remember how much they were a part of us. I will do my utmost to preserve the new traditions and laws that we have established here and hope that I continue Councilors Steve Rogers's and Asala Adaar's legacy with respect and dignity. I am only your voice, and as such, my ears and heart are open to your needs.
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I've been losing people all my life. I know that it's the sacrifice one must makes for your people, but you'd think that some time, some day, it wouldn't hurt so badly anymore. You'd become numb to it.
It never stops hurting. The galaxy still turns, and with it systems, but it never stops hurting.
I was nineteen when I lost my family, lost my homeworld. I never once thought that was a possibility. I knew that one day, my parents would die the same way everyone has that vague notion that one day their parents will be gone. Some far away thing not to be thought of. It was my lie to protect the Rebellion that sealed their fate. I did what I had to, and not a day goes by that I don't wish I could have made a different choice, especially in light of everything with my son.
Too many times, for too many years, I have put lives on the line every day, and every time a pilot goes down or disappears, I feel it. I don't show it, because showing it is not what the Resistance needs, but I feel it. I remember every name I can, but I'm getting older. I'm still sharp as a whip, but there are so many names, and it keeps growing. I've taken to writing them down.
Rey, Finn, Poe Dameron.
Anakin, Jaina, Han Solo.
They weren't mine, but they still felt a little like home. Jacen, when he was here, reminded me so much of Ben. They shared so much of the same passion. I will miss them, and I will remember them along with my own son and husband. They showed me what life could have been like in some far away galaxy.