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Tweak says, "I got rhythm!"

Josh Foley (fatedtouch) wrote in tensor,
@ 2011-06-23 19:17:00

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josh_foley, kevin_ford

Kevin
Josh sighed, leaning back in his wheelchair and looking up at the sky. It was a beautiful day. Blue sky, bright sun, cool breeze (which was likely someone's doing) and lots of shade. He didn't know how long they'd been outside, but he was starting to get agitated.

He shifted uncomfortably, frowning slightly when it didn't relieve anything immediately.

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	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	"Lie down with me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 07:11 pm UTC (link)
	Kevin squeezed his hand again, a little tighter. "You sure?" he asked quietly. "I don't...I don't want to hurt you." He wasn't quite shaking anymore, but it was a near thing and he was tense and worried after what had just happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	"I want to sleep with you," he replied, giving his hand a little tug. "And I want to kiss you. And you're too far away." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 07:25 pm UTC (link)
	He hesitated for a moment longer then lurched unsteadily to his feet. "Okay. If you're sure." He steadied himself on the edge of the bed and waited for Josh's final decision. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 07:30 pm UTC (link)
	Josh was nodding, and shuffling over as best he could manage. His right leg still refused to move, and with most of his upper body supporting his casted arm, moving on his own was difficult. But they had always been perfect together, Josh knew. So perfect even, they had been hurt on opposite sides so that parts of them still fit together just right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

_touchless_
2011-06-26 07:45 pm UTC (link)

Kevin used his grip on Josh's hand to help give him leverage to move, ignoring the way it made the ache spike into pain. It meant he could get closer, and as soon as there was enough space he clambered carefully onto the bed next to Josh, easing as close as he could get with a relieved sigh.

"I love you," he murmured, reaching for the blackout mask on the bedside table.

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	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 07:50 pm UTC (link)
	"I love you too," he replied, wiggling closer, even though Kevin hadn't settled yet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 07:54 pm UTC (link)
	It was hard to tug the mask on one-handed, but he didn't want to let go of Josh's hand and he couldn't risk being this close without it on. So he tugged it awkwardly into place, the world-going dim and almost gray-scale, then leaned his head in close to Josh's. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 08:00 pm UTC (link)
	Josh rolled as best he could, arm lifting slightly in an automatic reach for him. But Kevin was turning his head toward him anyway, and Josh managed to catch his mouth just fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

_touchless_
2011-06-26 08:24 pm UTC (link)

He'd probably never stop wondering what it would be like to really feel Josh's lips against his, but he'd definitely never stop wanting him any way he could have him. At least like this he could feel the warmth of him through the thin fabric, and the moist brush of his breath, and the fabric was loose enough that he could nip gently at Josh's lower lip as he rolled enough to settle a hand at his waist.

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	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 08:31 pm UTC (link)
	It wasn't the easiest thing. Kissing while lying flat together in a single hospital bed with an elevated cast and one fairly immobile leg a piece. After a while, he had to push himself up with his good elbow and take a few deep breaths. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	"You all right?" Kevin asked, sliding his hand gently up Josh's side and looking up at him. It was hard to read his expressions through the darkness of the mask. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	"Yeah...Just...a little dizzy." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 09:37 pm UTC (link)
	"Lay back," Kevin murmured, and it took every bit of self control he had to keep his voice from breaking. "Just...just lay back and rest. Sleep and I'll...I'll be here." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 10:14 pm UTC (link)
	"I'm okay," he assured him, squeezing his hand. "It's the good kind of dizzy." He smiled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	"Not sure there's such a thing as good dizzy when you're in this kind of shape," Kevin teased, though it came out more worried than humorous. He at least managed to keep from sounding sad. And he did duck in to kiss Josh again, slow and gentle. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-26 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	"Even when I was all unbroken me, you made me dizzy," he mumbled against his lips, leaning in to kiss him again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-26 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	He couldn't not smile at that, and he kissed Josh a bit more aggressively again. Just a bit, though. "Yeah, me too," he murmured into Josh's mouth. "You always have." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

fatedtouch
2011-06-27 05:17 am UTC (link)

"Do you remember our first kiss?" He tucked his head to Kevin's side. "Standing there in the pantry, with a big tug of plastic wrap in one hand, and the yellow carton in the other. You were breathing so hard you scared me. And I went to see if you were okay and you told me not to move." He threaded their fingers, giving Kevin's hand a squeeze. "So I held absolutely still - I even held my breath." He gave a short laugh and rocked their hands against Kevin's healthy hip. "You could have been doing anything, but I trusted you. And I stood there, and I watched you decide. And then you crossed over to me...so slow...Put the plastic up to my face and smoothed it against my cheeks with your fingers." He brought their hands up and rubbed Kevin's knuckles against his cheek. "And then you took a deep breath and you leaned forward and you kissed me. I didn't even know what to do." He laughed. Extending their arms, he flexed his fingers. "And my heart started beating so fast. And the house smelled like your mom's cinnamon cake. The afternoon sun coming in through the window, green and blue and purple, because of your mother's glass decorations. We were supposed to be setting the table for dinner. And when your mom came back in the house an hour later, we were still in the pantry."

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_touchless_
2011-06-27 05:49 am UTC (link)

Kevin sucked in a quiet, shuddering breath and folded his arms around Josh, holding him tight. He could feel tears pricking at the corners of his eyes, and he pressed his face - safe behind the constraining hood - into Josh's hair.

"I remember," he whispered. "God, I was...so damned scared," he confessed, squeezing Josh's hand in his, kissing his hair. "I'd been thinking about it for so long. How...how to touch you, kiss you. Wanting it so much. And I was so afraid it was just me wanting it." He huffed a quiet, barely there laugh, breath ruffling Josh's spun gold hair even through the mask. "Did I ever tell you it took me three days to get up the nerve? To convince myself that all those little touches meant what I wanted them to mean, that you were looking at me the same way I was looking at you? And even then I was still scared to death, that even if you did want me too you wouldn't...wouldn't want me like that. Through sheets of plastic wrap." His drew breath with a ragged sigh and shifted enough to brush his lips along Josh's ear, breath ghosting warm over his skin. "If Mama hadn't come home I think I could have stayed like that forever, with you pressed up against the pantry shelves all flushed pink and breathless and panting. I didn't want anything more than to just...hold you. Forever if I could. I still don't."

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	fatedtouch 2011-06-27 05:54 am UTC (link)
	"I'm going to get better," he whispered, like a secret. "And when I do, I'm going to fix you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-27 06:01 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah," Kevin agreed, voice shaking. "You are. You are going to get better." He didn't bother contradicting Josh about fixing him, though. It wasn't worth upsetting him for, and he loved that he wanted to, even if it wasn't possible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-27 06:08 am UTC (link)
	"It's only going to hurt for a little bit more," he consoled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_touchless_ 2011-06-27 06:11 am UTC (link)
	"I know, sweetheart," he murmured, face pressed into Josh's hair. "I know. I'm...so sorry you're hurting. I wish...I wish I could do something to help." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fatedtouch 2011-06-27 06:19 am UTC (link)
	"I'll fix me," he promised. "Eventually." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)