She'll bring you to your knees (sayamen) wrote in stepfordic, @ 2019-11-05 15:46:00 |
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Entry tags: | lorraine hart (sayamen), oscar dufresne (thatsmugbastard) |
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[After working all day, she checks back in with the rest of the search party anxiously. Alfie's been depressed about Mason so she's been taking it easy on him at work, he's way more sensitive than he lets on. She's not sure where they could have gone, but she knows that they checked all of Stepford. She tries not to assume the worst as she forces herself to carry on with her daily tasks. She checks in with the kids, but Peter's still gone. If they're together she knows Tony won't let anything happen to him, but she still wishes she had a way to check in with everyone.
She talked to the boy version of Pepper but he's pretty busy right now; he's taking on both companies while his Toni picks up the projects that Tony was working on on top of her own. Lorraine didn't want to work at Stark anymore, but Skye's gone so when the team wrote her asking for help she said she'd do the best she could. She heads home with a stack of papers she's helping them edit for a new proposal and when she gets inside she realizes that it's Mason's dinner day. It would have been rescheduled, but Skye's always the one who took care of that.
She drops the papers on the kitchen table and takes the chart off the wall to take Skye, Mason, and Seph out of rotation. It feels wrong. She changes the chore chart too, and a part of her aches as she wonders if they'll be back. She wonders to herself if this is what Tony and Cap meant when they insisted Red and Candy were real people- if she's going to forget about Skye, Mason, Tony, Peter, Cap, and Seph. She sees a poorly erased "Nando" under sweeping for today from when Kitty used a permanent marker on it by accident (the very action that made Skye ban other people from touching the chart at all).
This place feels so empty right now that it's overwhelming. There were 21 people who passed through this apartment, they're left with 9 now. She knows it's a problem, her abandonment issues, they've been there since her dad was taken, but she feels like their crew's coming to an end. This Friday's supposed to be the roommate reunion movie-night but they're missing so many people she doesn't even want to do it. She puts the charts back on the wall and her eyes water. She misses Skye.
Then she hears Oz's voice down the hall talking to the landlord, she wipes at her face to get rid of the tears but her face is red and puffy so it doesn't change much. When he comes in she turns to the fridge and looks inside for what she can make so he doesn't see her right away] Hey, how was work? [It's silly, everyone's pretty upset about the disappearances, but she doesn't want him to think she's needy or depressed. Too often she ends up spilling her emotions out on a guy and they end up feeling a responsibility to take care of her. Sure, their comfort helps her so much in the moment, but she can't help but think that if she came off as stronger that things might have lasted longer with each of those guys. She doesn't want to jeapordize this good thing by being too emotional while things are still so fragile]