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Dean Winchester ([info]cram_it_ugly) wrote in [info]spinningcompass,
@ 2015-09-23 22:12:00

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Entry tags:!closed, dean winchester, ~claire novak

Who: Dean and Claire
Where: Starting at her place
What: Post coital feels
When: Morning after this
Rating: Naked time, and fluff.
Open: Nope
Status: Ongoing

Dean was really beginning to enjoy the hormones associated with pregnancy. He flopped back onto the bed. Panting softly that easy grin tattooed on his face. "A guy could get used to this." He admitted as he drifted down slowly in post orgasmic bliss. Slowly drying in places, causing the sheets to stick in others. There was nothing else that could be this close to heaven, he was sure of it.

He raised his arm, offering his chest for her to curl up against if she wanted. He actually longed for it. Things were different with her. He didn't have to hide who and what he was with her. Even if he did tend to gloss over a few things that were slowly becoming more of an issue. That donkey kick of a stomach flop that he got when she smiled. Or laughed. Or got that saucy glint in her eye that said she was two seconds from tackling him, or shoving him against the nearest flat surface.

Dean had realized that it wasn't lust. Sure she was hot, and that was an understatement. Because if he was asked, he would have said she was hotter than anything busty asian beauties had to offer any day. But part of him was afraid to mention it because of what had happened, and the other part wanted to make sure it wasn't the euphoria of her having his kid.

His gaze was warm as he watched her for a second, though. "I ever tell you how awesome you are?"


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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-24 05:31 am UTC (link)
She'd take that offer in a second. At the moment, Claire was busy catching her breath; her toes were numb and her legs shaking as they dropped, boneless, into what remained of her sheets after their early morning romp. If yesterday had been a marathon, this was more of a hard sprint, initiated when she woke up with Dean's hips shifting against her backside. Probably in his sleep- it hadn't mattered. Claire hadn't had a drive like this in... ever. It was almost frightening.

Almost.

And it wasn't just because of the hormones. For the first time in longer than Claire could remember, she was knowing longer and longer periods of feeling safe. Having a trust in someone that she didn't automatically assume would suddenly vanish- or leave- or die. Counter-intuitive to her experience as it was, her instincts were riding the same hormonal wave as her libido, and since pairing up with Dean for the long haul, she wasn't fighting it.

She wasn't fighting any of it. And that was goddamn liberating.

"Once or twice," she panted after him, a quirk to her smile under closed eyes and bits of wild hair. She brushed it away and rolled toward him, arm draped across his middle and her cheek on his chest. She could hear his heart, here. Claire slept like this more often than not. "But the day just started."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-24 06:44 am UTC (link)
"Indeed it has." He combed some of her sex hair back. Careful if there were any snarls, those he carefully pulled apart with his fingers. Without actually looking. "I think I might have a few more awesomes in me." Though he did need a break.

Dean combed his teeth over his lower lip. "Though before our next awesome, I want to show you something." But not until they'd recovered for a little bit. He had no urge to move, not yet. He liked having her right there. The soft feel of her breasts pressed against his side, the smooth feel of her skin against his. And the delicate curve of their son.

The simple thought of 'their son' drew up that smile again. While he did gloss over the other floppy things, he didn't gloss over how happy the actuality made him.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-25 02:52 am UTC (link)
Claire's eyes opened, sliding up to Dean's face with quirked brows and plenty of curiosity. Show her something? Naturally she scanned the tone for innuendo (it was automatic), but expected to find none. Considering her legs were currently cooked noodles and so was he- at least for a little bit- this something obviously wasn't sexual.

"Does it have to be right now?" she hummed with a small smile, settling back down so her neck wasn't craned. In the meantime, she draped a leg over his, partly to anchor him there, but also for more skin contact. Flushed and a little slick from sweat. "Not sure I can walk yet."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-25 03:39 am UTC (link)
"No, no no no. I want to stay right here, right now." He practically purred as she draped her leg over his. He had no intention on going right then. In fact he even wrapped his arm around her a little tighter.

"I don't want to move, at least not until nature calls." Dean knew she wouldn't be able to stay like this for too long. Even if she wanted to. But he'd take what he could get. Which might have been odd, at first, but he'd made a good habit of it. And he enjoyed it almost as much as the sex itself.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-25 04:07 am UTC (link)
It was going to be sooner than later that she'd need to get up, even if baby continued to stay quiet and still. But for now, she was comfortable, settling in with the tingle of afterglow and slowly waking up from the haze. She even remained there in a content silence when his grip around her back squeezed in.

The quiet wasn't uncomfortable, or tense. It was natural. Peaceful. Like Claire was getting used to- it was the closest thing to safe and secure she'd felt in living memory. Slowly her synapses began firing normally again, and the thought returned to her. Her fingertips brushed his skin under them idly as she sighed. "So what are you showin' me?"

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-25 07:17 am UTC (link)
"Something I hope you'll like." Something that might help encourage her to move in with him. "I've been nesting. Testing out ideas." He didn't want to give away too much. Dean was keen on it being a surprise, mostly at least.

He loosened his hold on her just a little, and trailed his fingers over her shoulder lightly. The rough tips one way, then the smooth backs of his fingernails the other. He was content. And he wasn't sure he felt content since the real Jo was on the island. And even then, he wasn't sure he was this content. "You.. Uh..." verbalizing how he felt was a little harder than he realized. "It's been a while since I felt like this."

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-25 07:27 am UTC (link)
"Nesting-" Claire parroted back with a light laugh into his chest that still smelled like her. She'd read the word a few times since everything became...real, but never in reference to the father. From her lack of experience and perspective, she expected to someday be hit with the urge to cook and clean everything in sight. Only recently did she realize her strong-ass desire for a kitten- something to nurture and protect and cherish- had been a symptom. She let the word peter out as he stroked her shoulder, falling back into the silence they shared- though this time, admittedly, she was flipping through ideas in her head of just what he was trying to surprise her with.

Then he spoke again, the words bringing her back to front and center focus, like her eyes on his face as if she could read what he meant. In the process, her gut flipped- and not in the bad way- tugging at one corner of her mouth. She instinctively knew exactly what he was talking about- probably because she felt it, too.

Except this wasn't a repeat performance for her. There was no 'while' for Claire. This was all brand new, and sometimes felt like she was being lead along in the dark wearing a blindfold.

But blindfolds weren't always so bad...

"Like what-" she breathed after a moment, her tone belying the fact that she wasn't clueless. Just...needed a few specifics- to assure her she wasn't alone in this, even though she didn't think she was.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-25 08:38 am UTC (link)
"Hey, don't laugh." He said without bite at all. In fact there was a little bit of a chuckle in his tone. He'd nested when he found himself an apartment. And he'd done it again when he moved. Made the space his. With room for improvement if she wanted to change anything.

Dean felt the fear roll around in his stomach. When she raised her eyes to his face. It was almost enough to back out. To simply shake his head, and shake it off. But she wasn't them. She wasn't like them.

Still he watched her face a few moments after she asked. "Happy. Content. Safe." He whispered the answer, gently combing his fingers through her hair, hoping she wouldn't flinch away. Praying that she wouldn't chase him out because he was getting to clingy.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-26 10:13 pm UTC (link)
Claire didn't flinch. She didn't recoil or tense at his words, because they were as close to the ones she'd been holding onto for at least two weeks. How exactly opposite those two weeks had been from the last handful of months, which had been racked with loneliness, anxiety, and fear. All self-inflicted, too- which in retrospect, now seemed completely crazy.

Claire had been wrong a lot in her life, and the reason she was still alive is because she was at least able to learn from her mistakes. This- whatever it was between her and Dean now- was no exception. She wasn't letting him go.

Instead, she leaned into the small distance between them, her leg and arm softly gripping him for better leverage. Claire kissed him with everything that reflected those three words. Happy. Content. Safe.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-26 11:48 pm UTC (link)
Dean actually relaxed beneath her when her lips touched his. He wasn't used to the rejection that he'd got in this place. He never stayed in one place long enough to be with anyone longer than a few weeks. Maybe a few months when he was at the boys home.

He kissed her back, slowly, in depth. Making sure she knew she was the whole reason he felt this way. He hadn't expected to get over the crap that Jo and Max had put him through so quickly. But it felt like it was years ago, all thanks to the woman above him.

His kiss said words that he was afraid to use. Words that burned him every time he did. Words that he was afraid would make her run.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-27 12:24 am UTC (link)
Minutes, hours, decades, however long the moment lasted felt like forever and a heartbeat at the same time. The hard twist in her chest felt like the kick of an expensive whiskey, and in her stupor Claire knew exactly what it all was.

That realization, of course, opened the hormonal floodgates- not the same way watching him react to their baby's kicking for the first time, but with the same powerful result. She pulled back just for a breath that was supposed to stop the hard burn in her eyes. It didn't. Claire rested her brow on his cheek and closed her eyes tight, clearing her throat. As if that would work.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-27 02:58 am UTC (link)
Dean was never good at the crying thing. He wasn't sure how to respond to it. Had he overwhelmed her? Had it been too much. But he tried not to panic, and didn't back out. He wasn't sorry.

Instead of speaking, he simply settled for petting her. His fingers stroking down along the back of her hair, following the flow down along her shoulders and back.

"Alright?" It was all he could think of.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-27 03:16 am UTC (link)
Claire was a little overwhelmed, but not in any way she couldn't handle. Or didn't want to handle. At his worried word and gentle physical assurance, she nodded against his jaw, a small thread of emotional laughter in her breath.

"I'm good, I promise-" she sniffed, then cleared her throat a little again. Her lips touched the side of his mouth softly, for good measure before she pushed herself up to a sit and wiped her eyes with the back of her hand.

"It's just... I seem to have no emotion-filter anymore." Useful things, those- especially in their line of life.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-27 05:32 am UTC (link)
Dean eased himself up to sit against the headboard just a little more than he had been. He scrubbed his fingers through his hair. "Okay. I just thought I might have gone a little too far." Not that they could really, literally, go farther than her being pregnant with his kid. Not physically anyway.

He really didn't want to scare her off. So he decided to admit to what was going through his head. "You're not like them. You're more like me. They wanted to rush things, before. Max was always on her way to leave if I didn't do the next step. Jo, the one that was here, wanted me better, wanted me with her." His brow knit a little. "I didn't like it."

Dean trailed his hand down from his scalp to the scruff that mared his jaw. Scrubbing it in frustration, so that it made the noise flesh often did against course short hair. "And here I am wanting to rush you."

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-27 06:33 am UTC (link)
As he scooted himself up, Claire adjusted to put more weight on her hip, the covers mostly pooled over her legs and around her waist. The wave ebbed a little, letting her function without fear of sudden wibbling.

It was easy enough to read the tension on his face, which at first didn't make immediate sense. Then it hit her a second later. She'd felt the same way that his face looked before. What he said confirmed it, too.

They were a lot alike- dangerously so, in more ways than one. Her chest constricted again, folding her lips in on themselves. She also grabbed his hand once it fell down from his face. Instead of saying anything, at least at first, she brought it to her lips and kissed the palm. A compulsion- a reflex of perfect affection.

"We're gonna be the end of the world- you an'me," she told him with equal parts adoration, irony, and rueful truth. "But I'm not goin' anywhere."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-27 07:04 am UTC (link)
Dean chuckled softly, her actions had actually soothed him, and her words settled his mind. "I can't think of anyone I'd rather end the world with." It was as close as he was going to get to telling her he loved her. Already. The words would come, hell he wanted them to right then. But he wanted them to be true. And while everyday with her was proving them more and more so, and stronger than they had been to start, he still wanted to be sure that it wasn't an infatuation.

Or the simple tide of happiness that she brought him. "You know, that first day you showed up here, the way I acted had nothing to do with you. Right?" Or it had, if you wanted to say the gut wrenching attraction he'd felt toward her had to do with her. "I felt guilty for..." A half devilish half sheepish grin turned up his lips, as he glanced down toward his lap. "Day one, and you had a reaction out of me."

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-28 02:12 am UTC (link)
Maybe the words weren't spoken, but Claire understood him loud and clear, and answered with just as much a lack of verbal skills when it came to wrenching emotions. Hell if she was going to even try with her hormone production on hyperdrive, but ultimately- to her- it didn't matter. She knew how he felt. Hopefully he knew how she did. That was enough.

The here and now was always all people like them had, and currently, her present couldn't get any better. Words, unneeded.

The subject veered in a direction she hadn't expected, and even though the memory of her first day on the island was wracked with frustration, confusion, and what she'd seen as betrayal and abandonment at the time, the smile on Dean's bow-shaped mouth and the dimple to it's side, shaped around those last words? How could she resist?

"You're so easy," she laughed in her words. Leaning forward to cup his cheek and kiss him again, briefly, but softly, on her way off the bed. Nature was calling, and there were little feet doing an Irish jig on her bladder.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-28 05:31 am UTC (link)
He'd like to protest, he would. But he knew it would be a lie. Dean just wore the perverse grin watching her leave the room. "Yeah, when you walk away like that, of course I'm easy." He teased.

He almost didn't want to leave the bed. But he did have something he wanted to show her. Something he hoped she'd like. So with a sigh he stood up out of the bed, and followed the path of his clothes. Putting them on as he got to them.

"Want anything to eat?" He called from the sitting room.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-29 03:56 am UTC (link)
His teasing earned him a dry, but good humor 'Uh-huh' before the bathroom door closed. Claire took care of her business and ran through a quick morning routine. Deodorant, teeth brushed, and sex-hair twisted and woven into a loose braid that hung over her shoulder like a frayed rope.

She emerged fully clothed, simultaneously adjusting the tank top over the small swell of her stomach and tucking the jack-knife he'd given her into the sewn-flap of the yoga pants.

"Yes- yes I do," she answered quickly, a gleam in her eyes that bled into the half-smile she shot him. "Big, melting, double bacon cheeseburger. And pancakes."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-29 04:45 am UTC (link)
"That might be beyond my expertise." He admitted as he hauled his shirt up over his head. Dean smoothed it into place as he turned to face her. His lips turning up into a admiring smile. "I'm going to have to show you off, as well as get you fed."

There was no hiding that she was pregnant in that get up. But boy did it turn his motor, again. He was almost proud that he'd got her that way. "Or I could press you against the doorframe too, and make you really hungry." He teased, lust biting into his tone just a little.

But Dean didn't move. He stayed right where he was. Almost rooted to the spot.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-29 05:08 am UTC (link)
Claire gave him a growly little chuckle, and saved him the time by bellying up close and hooking two fingers under the neckline of his shirt- like a collar. "I'm already really hungry," she purred, pulling him down while toeing herself up for a kiss- a quick one, but still extra warm by a thread of that same lust in his voice, and ended with a light scrape of her teeth before she was heading toward the door. "But don't forget that thought."

Lunch didn't take long, and hit the spot, chasing away the hunger pangs and disturbingly strong craving for extra pickles (piled on her burger, of course). After saying hi to Isi and inhaling half a short-stack of pancakes for dessert, they headed to his apartment for the 'something' he'd been wanting to show her all day. After a meal that size, even if it was all going to a good place, Claire still insisted on taking the stairs (she found a way to exercise every day since being stuck on the island with nothing to hunt, and pregnancy didn't stop that)- usually it was simply running or calisthenics, but their fuckfest the night before was a good start. Four stories wasn't much, anyway.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-29 05:52 am UTC (link)
Dean made sure to walk behind her on the stairs. Just in case she fell back, or for whatever reason felt faint, he could catch her. He hadn't liked the idea of the stairs. But he wouldn't tell her no, since she insisted. It did help work off some of the lunch he'd had.

When they reached his door, he pulled the key from his pocket. Instead of putting it into the lock he handed it to her. "In case you decide you like it." He offered a little pull of a smile. Even if it was edged with nerves, but only just barely. After all she'd said she wasn't going anywhere.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-09-30 04:01 am UTC (link)
Except for a slight pause and a bit of a lopsided smile that slowly bloomed on her face, Claire didn't stall or balk at the key suddenly placed in her palm. She grinned at him- a girlish, almost innocent sort of smile of someone sincerely happy, but with no idea how to express it.

She winked at him and slipped the key into her back pocket, following him into the place. It was the first time she'd seen it, and she had to admit she was impressed. It was a lot bigger than she expected, with a wide open floor plan, nicely decorated (compared to the dated cottage furniture), but still warm and lived-in. And she couldn't help but notice it smelled like him.

But also, something else.

"...did you paint recently?" she asked, her freckled nose wrinkling.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-09-30 05:53 am UTC (link)
"I did." Dean directed his hand toward the hallway that was a farther from the apartment beside them. He loved his daughter but he didn't want to hear any monkey noises she and his son-in-law might make. And he was sure that they didn't want to hear any he made.

"I tried opening the window to get some of the smell out, but it didn't help too much." He might have hoped a little too hard that she would want to share the room with him. One that seemed so big and so lonesome, by himself. If she didn't, well he'd move his stuff to the other bedroom across the way, and invest in ear plugs.

But he didn't want those earplugs.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-10-01 05:42 am UTC (link)
"Pretty sure I would've been able to smell that without the bloodhound nose," Claire muttered lightly. "It's not bad, though."

More specifically, it wasn't turning her stomach. Might make her light headed if it hadn't been vented out, but he said he'd already taken care of that. Or, that could've just been her blood pressure again. She hadn't been this high off street level in....

Well, since she left his corpse on a bed.

He was 'discreetly' herding her down the hallway toward the source of the smell, and through a curious smirk Claire wondered if it had anything to do with whatever he had to show her. At first, she thought it was just cutesy way of getting her in his bedroom (which she was completely fine with at the moment, with memories of last night and this morning bouncing through her head at random), but instinct pulled her toward the cracked door in the hall that was leaking the sweet smell of paint. She looked at him briefly, questioning, then followed her gut and let herself into the room.

The nursery was well lit from the midday sun, diluted through soft curtains that lightly swayed in the breeze from the open window. Fresh paint was dry on the walls, though the smell would likely linger for another week or two, or until her nose got used to it. But it wasn't the odor that stopped Claire in her tracks. It was the wave of emotion that hit her much, much harder.

"Oh my god-" she breathed, suddenly covering her mouth and nose with both hands in obvious surprise. Her eyes were stinging in the best way. "Oh my god..."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-10-01 06:11 am UTC (link)
He'd never been so glad that he'd left that door open a crack than he was just then. The look on her face was worth the hours, the cursing, and the paper cuts from the birds. The room had all the furniture their little baby would need. There was even a miniature Impala hidden in.

"Do you like it? Because I can change it if you don't." This was like the third trial run he'd gone through after all. The one he'd liked the most. So far.

There were a few other toys placed here and there. All soft and baby safe.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-10-01 06:19 am UTC (link)
"It's like you took a picture out of my head," Claire practically squeaked, then laughed at herself under her breath. She loved it, and God help her, she was actually giddy. Everything she had secrectly been looking forward to- feeding, rocking, and playing with her child in such a beautiful, innocent place flooded her head, and Claire started to cry. Again.

"It's so perfect," she garbled out, not even bothering to stem the tide this time. The harder she fought, the worse it was. All she could do was turn to him and bury her wet face in his shoulder. "Thank you..."

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-10-01 07:42 am UTC (link)
These was the sort of tears he could handle. He chuckled softly and wrapped his arms around her and rocked her lightly. "Anything. For you. For him. Anything." He promised.

He'd done something right. Dean smiled against her temple. He'd been fighting it all day. Weeks really. He dipped his lips closer to her ear, and whispered. "I love you." And he knew he meant it. He knew once the words were out that they were coming from the right place. It wasn't just their kid that brought them around. It was her.

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[info]angelhearted
2015-10-01 10:11 pm UTC (link)
Claire felt her insides flip, then melt- everything but her heart, because that sang and shivered on the deep breath she pulled in. Only when she heard it against her ear in his soft, gunpowder voice did she realize she'd been holding onto it, hiding it in the dark for god knew how long. She held him tighter. The tears flowed a little easier.

But she didn't say anything yet- not because she didn't want to, either. Her ability to speak had just momentarily been placed on hold. Claire pulled back from his shoulder only far enough to rest their brows together, her hands linked on the back of his neck. She felt his hands and arms encircle her waist, and the slight bump of their son in the middle. For a few minutes, all she could do was kiss him, and breathe him in.

"I love you," she sighed, raw and honest.

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[info]cram_it_ugly
2015-10-02 04:53 am UTC (link)
Dean didn't know how much he needed to hear those three words until she uttered them. He'd known, of course, that she cared. Otherwise why go through all she was with him?

His hands slid around her middle, as careful as he could he hauled her up against him as tight as they could get, lifting her off her feet if he could. For at least a moment. When he set her back on her feet his hands moved from her middle to capture her face.

He searched her eyes, before he, as tender as he could, caught her lips with his own.

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