Skxawng (anotherhellhole) wrote in spinningcompass, @ 2013-10-20 13:21:00 |
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Entry tags: | !closed, jake sully |
Who: Jake and Neytiri
Where: Jake and Tommy's apartment
What: New memories
When: Sunday morning 20th October
Rating: Jake swears
Open: Nope.
Status: Complete! Hell yeah!
If he'd been awake enough, or a lucid dreamer, Jake would have realized something was different. He was used to vivid dreams, more than used to dreaming about past battles he'd fought in and reliving the fighting and injuries and deaths he'd seen and caused in his time as a Marine, and for the most part, he just woke up, shoved everything to the side and got on with his day. The only times he could remember where dreams had hurt him were just after he'd been injured and he alternated between dreams of flying and dreams of running forever and he'd spiraled down a slope of anger and depression that had nearly sent Tommy out of his life for good, and the recent dream about that bastard Palulukan that had actually physically hurt him.
But these dreams were different. Far more vivid, far more real, and incredibly painful. Fighting with Tsu'tey was bad enough, but then admitting his mission for Quaritch and Neytiri reacting like that... Hometree falling, oh Jesus, seeing it on vidscreens was bad enough but living through it... And then finding Neytiri crying over Eytukan's body... Betrayer, outcast, being in the place the eye does not see, and he thought his heart would break with the pain of it all... being thrown in jail, escaping only to have Grace get shot, and his stupid insane gambit with Toruk
Fucking hell, he had linked his mind with... with that... they were bonded, he was Toruk Makto!
He was Toruk Makto and it still couldn't save Grace's life and then they were at war, war with the Skypeople and their machines and explosives, and it cost him so much, so much blood and so many lives, Trudy and Seze, and Tsu'tey, fucking hell...