floating in a tin can
I would like to watch you sleeping, which may not happen. I would like to watch you, sleeping. I would like to sleep with you, to enter your sleep as its smooth dark wave slides over my head

and walk with you through that lucent wavering forest of bluegreen leaves with its watery sun & three moons towards the cave where you must descend, towards your worst fear

I would like to give you the silver branch, the small white flower, the one word that will protect you from the grief at the center of your dream, from the grief at the center I would like to follow you up the long stairway again & become the boat that would row you back carefully, a flame in two cupped hands to where your body lies beside me, and as you enter it as easily as breathing in

I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.

- margaret atwood

June 2017

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Dec. 14th, 2016


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HE WANTS TO DIE WHERE NOBODY CAN SEE HIM


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September, 1969
Time—something that work had always made easy to track—has long since ceased to function for Michael. It had effectively become meaningless back in May, but within the past few weeks, it’s gotten even more unclear how or why one day blurs into the next. Pills are put in his hand, food is put in front of him, he sleeps, he wakes up, it’s dark, it’s light. It doesn’t mean anything. Sounds echo emptily or seem muffled. It’s hard to focus. He can’t manage to write or doodle in his journal anymore. Even the prospect of talking to Lee is barely enough to get him to socialize. He wants to die more than ever.

His condition is thanks to a couple of things. A little while back, Lee had caught on to his starvation strategy; she’s far from stupid, and although it must have been disappointing to have to cut herself off from the bonus nutrition, she was adamant that he start feeding himself. He refused, explaining to her once again that he was simply a problem that needed to be solved, an imbalance that needed to be corrected—and to his shock, she went to the orderlies on him. He still doesn’t understand it. Lee can’t stand them, and the rules drive her crazy. Why would she do that to him? Why would she take that away from him, one of the only things left he could control about his life?

birds were singing to calm us down )

Oct. 12th, 2014


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be my homeward dove


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September, 1969
Los Angeles, California

Lee was still asleep when they got on the plane, and only began to stir when they stepped off. It's hot in New York in the summer, a close, thick heat that smells like cooking garbage. Los Angeles is hot too, but there's a breeze coming in from the ocean.

She's been sleepwalking the past couple of weeks, more zombie than human, but whatever quiet drama is going on in her head has been vastly overshadows by the riotous one going on at Sterling Cooper Draper Whatever it is now. Lee's not sure what's going on exactly, only that Michael didn't have a job for a week, and now he has a job waiting for him back in New York at some new firm, with some fancy title and no guarantee as to how long it will last. It could tank within a year. No one knows.

Given that, now is the only time they could have fucked off to California for two weeks.

Lee is happier out here, that much is obvious. She woke up, she's active and engaged. She spends a lot of time out by the beach, though after Michael turned an alarming shade of red she finally agreed to start doing other things, other indoor things, as well. When she's on her own she still spends most of her time outside, sunning herself like a lizard, until her skin has a lingering warmth to it like a baked stone. The sun baked her skin brown and bleached her hair white, and she always has the briney, salty smell of the sea clinging to her.

She still sleeps late, though, often not getting up until noon, like today. Michael's gone to walk off some of his continuous overabundant energy, but she stirs when the door opens again and even sits up, blinking blearily from a ragged curtain of her hair. “Michael,” she murmurs sleepily, reaching one hand for him and opening and closing her fingers. “Neshama, come here.”