InsaneJournal

[Adult friends]
In the spirit of February 29 I don't think I'm doing... great. It's stupid. Everything about my life is immeasurably better than it was a year ago, I should be thrilled. I miss my family. I miss Vision. I miss my nieces, any kid I get close to here gets taken away. I'm pretty sure James isn't coming back, it's been over a month. Maybe I should have done things differently. It's like... when shit's going down, all I can think about is the job, everything's clear. You don't sacrifice the mission. It's pretty much the only time I'm sure of anything. Everytime else... I don't know. People keep turning up that have all these connections and it was one thing when I thought the Entity couldn't pull anyone else out of a universe that doesn't exist but then Rogue turned up and I'm just, angry, because I've had no one. But I could. Vision or Sue or my sister or someone could turn up tomorrow and I can't let go because I'm always waiting. I feel like I'm halfway between two places and nothing is real. I just... want to sleep. Without nightmares.