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Steve Rogers (captainhandsome) wrote in snapthread,
@ 2019-03-12 15:07:00

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steve rogers (mcu), tony stark (mcu)

WHO: Steve Rogers and Tony Stark
WHAT: Midnight stuff
WHERE: Their house
WHEN: March 11
RATING: PGish

It was good to have routine. In times of great stress Steve took solace in it, in having something to do, somewhere to go, tasks to complete. The longer they were here, the more people arrived and the more people needed. Steve liked to be able to help people who needed, it was something to focus on, a way to put a foot in front of the other. Everything before felt too big and instead he could think small, like food and fires, on a change of clothes and washing the spare. There was actually a calmness to him he hadn't felt in a very long time, like hunting and the like suited him.

The house he'd claimed looked better by the day, the more they collected and the more they didn't talk about the fact they were creating a fortress of sorts. Of course Steve was happy to share what he had, but he also wanted to make sure it ended up back with him. After not seeing Tony for such a long time, it was strange how quick and easy the transition had been to living in such close quarters.

The beds that Steve had made them grew more comfortable with additions and he'd moved Tony's to where there wouldn't be a draft after they'd talked about being cold. It was actually Steve's favourite room, the floor was stone but he'd found old rugs to cover parts of it, so things echoed less and heat had something to cling to.

Even if he didn't really get cold, Steve still recognized it was cold. He'd been laying there for a while, not really thinking but not asleep and he got up to take a leek outside. When he returned Steve headed for the fireplace, quietly moving back the grate to add another large log to keep it burning through the rest of the night.

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captainhandsome
2019-03-21 02:07 am UTC (link)

The Reasons Not To grew chapter by chapter, pages that fell between them as they got further from where they'd been. It'd been right once, the right time, Steve felt sure of it and like all things in life that were good and that he wanted it had slipped away. Now all that remained were things so hard to talk about and pain so ingrained that Steve really didn't think there was any coming back from it.

Yet there they were, breathing the same air, creating layers of trust, security and teamwork like they were right back at the start.

Steve sighed as he looked up at the roof, something he was already used to staring at for hours on end. "I don't know, I don't know why we're here, or how. I know some people are better off, but others certainly wouldn't be. Maybe this is where we can gather a second strike, I really just - can't figure it out." Steve said with a gentle little smile.

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allaboutego
2019-03-21 02:39 pm UTC (link)

They were getting right back to the start, certainly. But that was -- the start had been an awfully long time ago, the same way it felt like it'd been a million years since he'd clawed his way out of that cave with his first suit of armor. He still remembered it, it was still important but everything had changed back then - including the core of himself.

It was a strange consideration. And not really one he had time for right now.

Tony didn't expect Steve to have the answers. Of course he didn't. But it would have been nice anyway. Still, he had a point: this was a great place to gather a second strike. To be ready for something that they weren't the last time. Steve's leadership and people skills would have been a boon back on Titan -- possibly one that could have changed the tide of the battle. Steve would have been able to talk Quill down from his heartbreak and rage, something that Tony had failed at spectacularly.

"We'll get there," he decided quietly. Not that he hadn't already decided that, but it was a good reassurance. "Go to sleep."

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captainhandsome
2019-03-28 12:14 am UTC (link)

He didn't want to get back to the start, the start hadn't been what he wanted for them either. But somewhere there had been a middle, a really fantastic middle and even if that was just friends and trust. Well Steve wanted that. Nothing seemed quite right without it, not when together they were such good leaders. They needed to channel that now as best they could.

But under that was something personal, a place Steve kept firmly Locked Down. It was easier to just not consider it, there was no time, there was always something else he could focus on. It had always been that way, although when he'd been young it had had a lot more to do with being self conscious of how he'd looked. Now Steve worried about people liking what they saw too much.

That sounded like an order and Steve wasn't used to following them, but Tony was right. They should sleep, there would be time tomorrow to think through everything another hundred times. So he settled down, but didn't shut his eyes right away. Because looking at Tony's profile was nice, actually looking at Tony was always nice and in the darkness you could nearly get away with looking, like it covered all sins.

Besides the view was so much better than what Steve saw when he closed his eyes.

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