Lily Evans (just_lily) wrote in silverage, @ 2011-08-08 19:29:00 |
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Well, that had gone all to hell, but she wasn't sure what else she'd been expecting. She'd forgotten she'd never told Sirius that Severus was here, and she had no idea if Remus had or not. Still, if she never had a conversation like that ever again it would be too soon. She'd made good on her promise not to come back, and on the one of taking a walk. She'd stalked aimlessly around the city until she'd burned off the worst of her rage -- though that rage was actually a combination of several other emotions that were most easily expressed as rage. She was pissed at both of them, and at herself, because she really hadn't meant to unleash the news like that. She'd thought about tearing the note down afterward, but had instead opted to leave it where it was. If nothing else, Remus could read it and have an idea of why everyone was in the moods and places they were. After stopping to eat at a diner, she assessed her mental state to ensure she was more or less sound before heading back to her room. Not quite there yet, she ordered a second round of desert and nursed that for a bit longer. After that, she was just tired, and she still had four more days of work ahead of her. She had no idea where she stood with them, and she hated being on shaky ground. She reasoned Sirius would be around eventually and they'd apologize and everything would be all right again. This wasn't the first time they'd done this to each other, and Lily knew it wouldn't be the last. They were both entirely too hot-headed to engage in discussions. They fought. The only reason she wasn't sporting any bruises or burns right now was because they'd been separated by two blocks and several buildings. Otherwise, she had no doubt they would've had their wands out on each other. Severus though ... she didn't know. He'd seemed softer at the end of it, but she still had no idea what decision she was being accused of. Living with Sirius? She couldn't be friends with both of them? Not that she imagined she was friends with Severus, but she'd hoped things would go in that direction. Now, she had no idea if that was a dead horse or just an extremely lame one. Was there a hope of it, or not so long as Sirius was around? She didn't think there were any plans to change their intended living arrangements, but she guessed she'd see what Sirius had to say about that. When Lily finally made it back to the welcome center, exhausted and drained, she trudged up to her room. She flicked her wand out to check and make sure Sirius wasn't inside before she let herself in. She dropped her bag by the door and made it as far as the couch before she flopped down. She stared vacantly at the ceiling and sighed. She made a mental list of things she had to do, and she promised herself she'd get up and do those things. Soon. In a moment. She just needed to lay here and do nothing for a bit. |