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Orange et al/Kanou Taisuke (sodacanangst) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-10-02 19:15:00

Entry tags:

!days 270-279, kanou taisuke, kurama, kurosaki tasuku, maya fey, minami ikki, wanijima kaito, {d'eon/lia de beaumont}

Who: Orange, Thorn, Daisy, bystanders etc.
Where: Pyxis
When: Day 277, afternoon
What: Fallout of the fallout of the fallout from that other fallout

[ALL THE THINGS ARE HAPPENING AT ONCE gosh okay I need to stop putting off talking to Daisy. Taisuke and his stalker are standing outside of Pyxis with Daisy's shirt, having finally worked up the nerve to go talk to him. Deep breath and knocking, DO OR DIE TIME.]

Daisy?

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	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 08:44 pm UTC (link)
	...Fuck. I. I still want to be your friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	[Looks relieved] Good. You weren't going to lose me so easily anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent)

sodacanangst
2011-10-02 08:55 pm UTC (link)

[But then he looks grave again] Daisy, I've... I've been trying really hard, not to do anything... I know you've been hurt by Ophiuchus a lot before so I didn't want to do that. I've really been trying, not to push you or play rough or anything like that. Even if it's in a playful way, I thought if I were to rough house with you, you'd still be seeing the uniform. I've never been this touchy, I changed the way I behaved so we could still be friendly without it ever reminding you of something bad. And because I did that... I am Ophiuchus, Daisy. I tried to get you to see past the uniform but because of that... You can't treat me like a regular Blank. Pushing me around like that, it's going to get us both in trouble. I'm not saying I want you to be cowed or distant like you are with the others, but... If you grab me like you did yesterday, I'm going to have to push you away.

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	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	nods, slowly Right. Sorry. It won't... I won't do it again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	...You're still my friend, though. You can tell me if I do something you don't like or if I fuck up. It can't be exactly like it was before, but I'm still not gonna oppress you. You get a say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	gives him a smile ...right. shoves his hands into his pockets and stares at the ground I won't fuck it up again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	Me neither. Ah, that's... That's another thing. Yesterday I was really shocked, so I wasn't thinking... I'm really sorry I let Thorn shoot you. I broke my promise... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:14 pm UTC (link)
	bigger ~~fake~~ smile Guess you can't do it all, huh? Whatever. Shit happens. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:18 pm UTC (link)
	... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:23 pm UTC (link)
	...slowly just deflates to blank (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	..... [Dropping his voice low, barely above a whisper] I lost control, Daisy. Of that thing. [Gestures to his head] That's why I was upset. And the reason I didn't want to talk about it is... The happier I am, the stronger it is. But if I'm miserable or conflicted, it makes it harder for it to control me. I needed that, so I couldn't afford... To get comforted... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	...pause, and drops his voice as well, shoving his hands deeper into his pockets mostly to avoid reaching out to touch Shit. That's why the kitchen... You were hurt bad, weren't you. And you can't... Shit, I'm sorry... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	Thorn stopped me, but... I really tried to kill myself... My heads a mess right now Daisy, and it has to be, that's the only way, but... I'm no good to anyone like this. Give me time to get in control again, to be someone you can depend on again. I'll get it together. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:42 pm UTC (link)
	...yeah. Just... Take care of yourself, Orange. And... Let me help, a little, as a friend, if you can, Orange. I hate... I hate feeling like the weak link in everyone's lives. It's been that way since Cygnus... I'm not as weak as you guys think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	You're my friend, of course you're my friend! It's not... It's not that you're weak Daisy, you're... I trust you a lot... But I can't get help right now. Not now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	[Oh god I'm getting emotional again, shaking his head and standing up straight, voice returning to normal] I should go. I've said everything, so... I'll see you around? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 09:50 pm UTC (link)
	wants to ask for a hug so bad, but this is definitely not appropriate at all, and he takes a deep breath, and gives Taisuke his best 'fuck you' grin and meets his gaze dead-on Yeah. I'll see you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sodacanangst 2011-10-02 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Bye, Daisy. [BACK TO OPHIUCHUS where my snake boss is mad at everyone...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hacks_ur_garden 2011-10-02 10:02 pm UTC (link)
	waves, and goes to hide in his room if the crowd will let him (Reply to this) (Parent)

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