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Tweak says, "It's not me, it's YOU."

Royal (Lelouch Lamperouge) (zeromemories) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-07-23 00:53:00

Entry tags:

!days 250-259, allen walker, claude c. kenni, johnny rayflo, kiryuu zero, lelouch lamperouge, lenalee lee, rabi, rory pond, watanuki kimihiro, {charles j. krishund}

Who: Lelouch
Where: Lacerta
When: Day 255, just after the game
What: CONFRONTING PROBLEMS.

[by problems I mean Cobra, knock knock Lacerta]

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	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:20 am UTC (link)
	[PAST CARING. you can tell this is serious when!] [if I come in there and sit on top of you then maybe you can't run away] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:23 am UTC (link)
	[doesn't stop him, or really react to it, but after a second he brushes hair out of Lulu's eyes and drags a thumb under one of them] Why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:25 am UTC (link)
	. . . to be stronger. So I can protect the things I need to protect instead of being the one who's always protected, or the one who always loses everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:28 am UTC (link)
	You're always going to lose everything now. That's what it is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:29 am UTC (link)
	I don't believe that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:30 am UTC (link)
	No? Say you succeed, and protect everyone you love. Are you going to change them like you, or watch them disappear one by one while you stay the same? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:34 am UTC (link)
	. . . honestly, at this point, more of the people I intend to stick around after this place are some matter of immortal than those that aren't. As for the rest—[hesitates] I already came to terms with the fact that I'm not able to be with some of those that I love the most. I can't go back to my own world. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:38 am UTC (link)
	[iii wish i had cigarettes or alcohol] What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:39 am UTC (link)
	I planned to die. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:40 am UTC (link)
	I've done that a hundred different times. You're alive now. You wouldn't be the first to return. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:41 am UTC (link)
	I know. But it's not easy to decide something new to live for. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:44 am UTC (link)
	...who are you going to protect, Kitten? Where are you going to go with your snazzy vampire powers? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:47 am UTC (link)
	Don't belittle me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 08:52 am UTC (link)
	It's a real question. Empires like Kitten's have risen and died in the time since I became what I am now. Do you want to hazard a guess at how many memories I have of the people I love living happy, full lives thanks to my protection? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 08:57 am UTC (link)
	Do you want to hazard a guess at how much I care? You're not the first discontent immortal I've ever met and loved, you know. It's not like I'm completely naive. And as much as I can act emotionally, it's not like you can't be immature, yourself. We're all still human in the end. And I mean that as unironically as possible. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 09:01 am UTC (link)
	You weren't even a content mortal. I don't know why you think a few hundred years is going to change that. [STICKS TONGUE OUT AT] Are you just here to tell me it's none of my business and I should love you anyway? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 09:04 am UTC (link)
	I'd been hoping just to talk to you, honestly. It's not that I don't care what you think . . . but, you know, you don't often seem to accept that I'm allowed to have my own opinions and make my own decisions. But yes, I'd like it if you didn't stop loving me. That would be nice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 09:09 am UTC (link)
	I am not that bossy. [flops back into his coffin] And I couldn't do that anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 09:11 am UTC (link)
	Think about what you did to my boyfriend and tell me again that you're not bossy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 09:13 am UTC (link)
	He turned you into a vampire, I'm not going to be happy about that no matter how you spin it. What's my history of not letting Kitten make his own choices or say what he thinks? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 09:16 am UTC (link)
	You can't blame him for it. It was my decision—I don't care if you're not happy with it, just don't take it out on him like that. . . . it's not like that. I do what I want—but you still think I'm young. Foolish. Your kitten, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hemogobbled 2011-07-23 09:25 am UTC (link)
	It was his decision too. I love you, I don't love him. [siighs, reaches up to drag fingers through his own hair] You are young, Kitten. And if you don't see that, you're foolish for it, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-07-23 09:29 am UTC (link)
	You still can't expect me to be happy about you doing that. . . . and I do know that I'm young. But there are things only the young know—experience changes you, but doesn't always bring wisdom. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)