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Tweak says, "put what in the where now?"

Howard Link (Note) (vaticanpieninja) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-04-17 20:04:00

Entry tags:

!days 230-239, allen walker, excel, gokudera hayato, howard link, kiryuu zero, takizawa yuta, {{{zelgadis greywords}}}

Who: Delpavodracula :E
Where: Skullhat
When: Day 232, noonish
What: dubiously wise decisions

[For the Hydraculan lookout that's usually hanging out on the skullhat, the sight of delphinians passing by toward the south isn't all that unusual. Them stopping to talk may not be entirely unusual either.

Today though, Link just stops a ways away to sort of stare toward the skulldorm, though it's partially as if he's looking through it, apparently very seriously considering something that's been on his mind...]

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	righthandsmoke 2011-04-18 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	. . . It's— We already talked about it! Kind of . . . He's just . . . a better guy than I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-19 11:28 am UTC (link)
	. . . (Reply to this) (Parent)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-19 11:28 am UTC (link)
	Then it is stupid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-19 02:26 pm UTC (link)
	See?! I knew you'd say that! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-21 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	[squeezing his hand tight] It's not like I don't feel stupid too. River's a lot better than I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-21 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	No he's not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-21 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	Everything about him is. It's obvious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-21 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	No. He's completely different. You two can't be compared like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-21 11:33 pm UTC (link)
	So would you call that a stupid worry? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 12:03 am UTC (link)
	Of course it's stupid. I wouldn't even do anything with him because I was more worried about you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pierrotdetous
2011-04-22 12:14 am UTC (link)

... That's where I am with Link.

I'm gonna be jealous... and worried. Of River. He's been better for Slick, he'll be better for you. I'd do anything for you, you know, but I'm not that great either. So I get jealousy... because I'm really jealous. Because I'm selfish, and scared you'll get fed up with me. I guess we're the same type there...

But that part... I can handle. I'm not saying you shouldn't ever be jealous of Link. Those are your feelings. It's the part where you think you can be compared to Link, that I'd ever think he was better than you... that part is stupid.

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	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 12:37 am UTC (link)
	I could never get fed up with you. I won't mind any time you want to be selfish, but don't worry about something like that. . . . River can't be better for me anyway. The position he's in is completely wrong for it. He's not bad, but it's . . . it's hard. Aa . . . I kind of know that in some way, but it . . . It's a hard feeling to let go of, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 12:49 am UTC (link)
	Mm... But....even if I never touched Link... I can't touch him now, anyway... it wouldn't change how I feel about him. That's how it is with you and River, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Yeah . . . like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 01:16 am UTC (link)
	. . . You don't... have to worry about my feelings, then. Whether you want to show your love to him that way or not. I want to be able to help make you happy, not complicate things. It's why I told you it was okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 01:23 am UTC (link)
	I know. . . . I'm sorry I'm not good enough to be able to say the same thing about Link. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 01:36 am UTC (link)
	... [turns to him and cups his face with both hands] You don't have to apologize for that. How can I make you less afraid? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 02:42 am UTC (link)
	[shifts uneasily, glancing off to the side somewhere] I don't know. I just . . . can't help it. It's my fault for being a jealous guy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 01:49 pm UTC (link)
	[leans in very close.] I already said you can be jealous. I don't want you to be afraid. I want you to believe that I love you, and I want you. And I need you, and I don't know how I'm going to ever live without you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 05:52 pm UTC (link)
	. . . I know you love me. But you don't really need me do you? You've got Slick and Link. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 07:03 pm UTC (link)
	No. I need you. I need you. Why do you think I've tried so hard, when I think you're about to hate me... if you disappeared tomorrow I don't know what the hell I would do. It's not different for me. Loving and needing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 07:13 pm UTC (link)
	It still feels hard to believe . . . I think I'm just bad at it. Sparta's hit me for not getting it with Hydra before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 07:27 pm UTC (link)
	... Look at me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	righthandsmoke 2011-04-22 07:38 pm UTC (link)
	[. . . huffs lightly and looks back at him] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2011-04-22 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	Do you remember when we met? When I woke up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)